New Year's eve

I am finding it hard to believe that 2007 will be over in less than 2 hours! I am excited for the new year because I am going to use it as a fresh start and a chance to be the person that I know I can be.
Although I accomplished 70lbs of weight loss in 2007, and started an exercise program, I still had a hard year and I am hoping that 2008 will be better.
I would like to accomplish many things in 2008 but I will not put too much pressure on myself to succeed, as long as I take baby steps towards my goals I will be fine.
Here are some goals for 2008:
Stick to a budget- I have to stop spending so much money on things that I don't need just because I'm bored or lonely.
Stop obsessing over things I want to buy- I have to realize that I can't get everything that I want, and to be satisfied with what I have and how fortunate I am. (this is a big one for me!!)
Find a new job that pays well- I am hoping that this happens this year sometime.
Have confidence in my abilities and myself- this is big too because the more confident that I am, the more chance of sucess that I have.
Decide which academic path to take- this will depend on if I get into any of the courses I am applying for, but If I don't I need a plan b,c,d, etc.

Some of my weight loss and fitness goals are:
Track everything- instead of just guessing and spinning my wheels
Stop eating takeout- this also ties in to the budgeting goal :)
weigh and measure and follow the WHOLE program!!
Don't reward myself with food, use things I want instead- this ties in with other goals as well!!
On thursday only eat 1 treat instead of having a whole treat day!!
Keep exercising to the best of my ability
Don't be ashamed to try running!!
And of course, eat the best possible foods that I can, not too much processed foods.

This is alot to change in one year, but I know that I can at least start on the path of all of these changes, for once, I have faith in myself!!!
Happy New Year everyone!

Here we go again

Ok so after quite a while of not writing, I have finally decided to update this.
I am still doing my courses and although I am a little behind, I think that all will be well. I am also still looking for a good job, and although I am feeling very discouraged, I am hoping that one comes along soon.
In the next few days I will be making a list of the things I hope to achieve, as well as the things that I would like to change about myself in the new year. I know that there are some things that I am too hard on myself about, but I am honestly going to reflect and look deep inside to see where I want to go with my life.
As for weight watchers, I am down 68lbs and although I have gone off track a little, I am slowly getting back there and I just have to start measuring and tracking again.
So it looks like I'll have a busy few days ahead of me, but it can only benefit me right??
I guess that's all for now!

Well after a couple of really bad days in the last couple of weeks, I'm feeling back to normal. Joey and I had an awesome talk and we are back on track.
I was bad last week and skipped weigh in, I really have to stop doing that and face the music. I'm going this week no matter what!! I may actually gain because I joined a gym this week and I am working different muscles than my usual work outs do. It feels awesome to be back at the gym, I missed it. I actually got a great rate, and they let me have a student rate even though I'm only taking 2 courses!! It seems like a great place and I feel comfortable there, which is so important to me.
I started my courses this weekend, I'm a little nervous but I need this to graduate and I am going to try my best.
I am still thinking about core because it might help my PCOS but I'm not sure yet how it will fit into my lifestyle.
That's all for now.
Jenn

So tired

I am exhausted today!! it almost feels like I can't function. I am also feeling very overwhelmed by life today, there's so much that needs to be done and I don't have the time or energy to do it!! I did get a walk in, which makes me happy, but I also felt like I was going to pass out or collapse. I don't know what else I can do but keep trying. anyway, I'll try to write more later, I have my first product to review!! yay.

Changes

Today's post is about changes, I am very happy about summer changing to fall and now I am trying to inspire some changes in myself.
-I am back on track with ww for the most part and I have gotten back into exercise again, slowly but surely!
-I am getting a bit more energy every day and I am glad that I found out about my low thyroid.
-My course starts Oct 1 and although I am nervous, I am also excited about the possibility of graduating and moving on to the next step(whatever that is) in the spring
-my new job is great and I am excited about the extra money, but it also sucks that it is only until November.

The only thing that is really bothering me right now is my relationship with my husband. I honestly love him with all my heart and he is my best friend, but I am feeling a lot of mixed feelings around him lately. It seems like he doesn't care about anything and he expects many things to be on his terms. Don't get me wrong, he is not abusive, and he puts up with a lot of shit from me, but I wish there was more support and discussion. I have a hard time talking about things with him and I wish he cared more. I see a desperate need for changes here because I'm afraid that if something doesn't change, our love might not be enough.

anyway, enough about that. I am just so happy that it's fall because it always feels like a time for starting over and refreshing after the summer. Who doesn't need that once in a while?
Jenn

So it's been a while again! I have been keeping busy with work, and some family are visiting from Cape Breton. I love having visitors but I had to lay down the law a little about the use of margarine and oil!! See my grandfather does all the cooking..by choice and he cooks healthy foods but uses too much margarine and oil. After a few gentle reminders he didn't use as much as usual.
On another note, I totally shocked myself when I stepped on the scale at my meeting and saw that I have lost 50 pounds!!!!!!!! I was so excited. I have been in weight watchers since Feb 23 and I am happy with my progress so far. I have had some bad weeks but I always get back on track and keep going!
I start my new job Monday, the same day as Joey comes home. I am excited about the job but I am nervous as well. I am really excited about Joey coming home, it gets really boring and lonely around here without him.
The last night at my old job turned out to be pretty eventful too, I had to call 911 about a fire set outside the house across the street, I gave a statement to a super hot police officer, and then I was up most of the night because of an intense lightening storm that knocked out our power, so I had to monitor the alarm system!!! That may have been the busiest night since I started there!!
Anyway, I guess that's all the excitement I have for now!

Lazy Sunday!

I'm pretty sure I'm back to normal weight wise now, which is good. I feel better now that I'm getting my veggies and water in again, it's amazing how much of a difference it makes.
I had a great walk yesterday, 6.8k in 80 Min's, I decided to take a new route and see where it took me and I'm glad that I did. I am really struggling to get my butt out and walk today too, this always happens when I leave it too late in the day, I obsess over the fact that I didn't exercise, but I think I'll take an evening walk after supper for a change today. I wish I knew why it's so hard to get motivated to do anything lately.
I guess that's all, I'm off to mope around I guess.

Wow

So a lot has happened since my last post. Joey only came home for 1 week and then he had to leave today again for the arctic. He'll be gone for 20 days this time, we had a great week together though. we went to Cape Breton for a pool party and fireworks, we went to the waterfront, we went to dinner and a movie and we had a picnic in a cute picnic park. It was great but I am up a few pounds. I'm hoping it's mostly water weight and that I will be able to get it off by next weigh in. I skipped weigh in yesterday, which I kn ow is bad but I was super stressed about the weight gain. I am ready to get back on track, although the vacation was nice.
On another note, I got the job I was talking about earlier, it's not day shift though, it's evenings and awake overnights. I was going to say no but it is a great chance to get lots of training and experience in the field. I took the part time instead of the full time so hopefully this will work out and become permanent.
Oh well, I guess that's all, off to another boring weekend alone!
Jenn

2 years!!

Yesterday was our 2 year anniversary! Hard to believe that Joey and I have been married for 2 years already! I was a little down because Joey has been gone for 3 weeks and won't be home until July 28th but thanks to some kind words and cyber hugs from the ww.ca people, the day got better. There were a lot of suggestions to get together with friends, which made me realize that the reason I don't really have any friends is because I have slowly pushed them away. I don't know why I did this, I just know it's time to fix this if I can because I used to love getting together with friends so much, and I miss that.
So Joey was able to call, which was awesome, because I haven't heard his voice since canada day!
There is a new job posting at work, dayshift and twice the money, for 3 months and then I would go back to my old job, I really want to get this but I am so nervous to apply and it will cut into my time with joey when he comes home, but I am seriously thinking about applying. I am high enough on seniority that I may have a reasonable shot at getting it. Oh well I will think about it overnight.
Anyway, I guess I'm off to exercise even though it is pretty hot out.....yuck.
Take care,
Jenn

TGIF

I am so happy that today is friday!! I worked 2 double shifts this week and they were good shifts but I'm tired. I really miss Joey today too. Only 2 weeks until he gets home!!
Weigh in this week was awesome, I lost 3.4 for a total of 42.4!! It feels great. I had a great walk today too, 5.4k in 64 mins. It was so hot today too, we are finally getting some summer weather. I am getting up early tomorrow to walk so that I don't get as hot as I did today.
So I tried cherries last night for the first time and I loooove them!!! The only place I could find some though was costco so I had to buy a 4lb box of them, which is good because they have a short season and I'm going to freeze some to have later in the year.
The tall ships are in town and I'd love to go and see them but I'm not good in crowds unless I have someone to go with, mainly Joey, so I'm not going. I'll just try to think of something for us to do when he comes home. Well I guess that's all, I live a very boring life,
Jenn

I had an alright weekend I guess. I was bored yesterday and I went to penningtons to see the girls, in a way I miss working there because the people are great but I also don't miss alot of things about the job. Anyway, a skirt I've been looking at for a long time was on sale so I figured I'd try it on. I took a 26 and a 24 into the fitting room and the 24 fit!!! It fits good enough that I could wear it now! So I bought the skirt and a top to go with it and I feel so good! I haven't worn a 24 in so long. When I left working Penningtons I was a 28!!! anyway it was great. I am going to wear this outfit when Joey comes home and I go pick him up.
I am doing nothing today, well actually, I'm making soup and exercising but I'm not going out. I have a couple of really busy days ahead of me, I took 2 extra 10 hour shifts at work so I'll be really tired by the weekend but I wanted some extra money for Joey's vacation.
Well off to exercise I guess.
More later,
Jenn

I am soooo sore right now. I decided to clean and de-clutter my apartment today, which turned into 6 hours of work!!! I did the usual stuff as well as steam cleaning the carpet and furniture in the living room and other jobs that I've been putting off! now when Joey gets back home we just have to clean out the storage room and I'll be happy. That is another huge job and I am not doing it alone.
Anyway since the furniture is still drying I am hanging out in the bedroom watching T.V and surfing the net, which is nice for a change. I don't see the bedroom much lately since I work the sleep shift monday night-thursday night.
I think I will walk if the weather is nice tomorrow, it has been really crappy lately so I've been doing the eliptical instead. Also I think I've been avoiding walking since some jerk was yelling things at me from his apartment. These things really bother me although I try not to let them.
I guess it's time to get back at it!!
Anyway I'm off to bed since it was such a long day!
Jenn

Weigh in!

Well I didn't do too badly today, I lost 0.6 even after the bbq and drinks this weekend. I tried to make good choices but I still splurged a little. I know I need to start measuring my portions again because trying to eye-ball things isn't working for me.
I also don't have alot of motivation for exercise these past few days but I'll get back on track. I ordered a pedometer on costco.ca yesterday so hopefully it doesn't take long getting here. I also got a sport watch today, it's not fancy but it has a timer on it to time my walks, and eventually my running when I start. I would love to start running soon and eventually get a timex ironman watch.
I am also thinking about switching to core, I'm nervous though because I love certain snacks that aren't core but I can use ap's for those. I also know that Joey wouldn't like core but I want him to keep following the program with me. I'll think about it for a week and in the meantime eat very few processed foods and see how I do.
Well I guess that's all for tonight!
TTFN

Back at it!!

So I went home to Cape Breton for the weekend and I went off program alot but I had fun. It was our yearly family gathering so I'm ok with it but now I have to get back on track. I didn't exercise today but I will get up early to do something tomorrow. My biggest motivation is to lose more weight before Joey gets home on July 27th. I miss him alot tonight for some reason and it's only been a week.
I have decided what I am going to do when I hit my goal weight, I know it's really far off but I would really like to get professional pictures done at a studio. This is something I can look forward to and work towards.
anyway, off to relax before bed and get ready to get back on track tomorrow.

Sunny monday morning

Well I am feeling a lot better lately but I am a little sad today. I just dropped Joey off at the base, he is leaving on his ship until July 27th I'm glad it's only 1 month though. I'll just have to keep busy so the time will pass quickly. We had a great day yesterday at Peggy's cove just outside Halifax, we earned some great activity points walking on the rocks and we even got some pictures taken of the 2 of us by some nice people who offered to take them.
I realized that I need to start measuring my portions again because they seem to be getting bigger and I would really like to lose some more weight by the time Joey gets home.
I made some of Mandy's muffins last night, they are so awesome!! I usually eat them for breakfast with my coffee, they taste great and are nice and filling!
Well I guess that's it for now, I'm trying to kick myself into going for a walk.
Jenn

That's me on the left.

Friday

Well here it is, Friday again. Yesterday was weigh in day, I lost 1.6 which is awesome but I am .2 away from my 10%. Today is a bad day for me as my depression has decided to rear it's ugly head, I have spent most of the day crying and freaking out about my career and education situation. I am trying so hard to work everything out and correct the mistakes of my past(low marks, etc.) but it seems like the harder that I try, the more obstacles I run into. It is days like today that just make me want to give up, but I know that's stupid and I may feel a little better tomorrow. I just wish I could get a good paying job that I love and am good at(I know, doesn't everyone).
It would probably help if I had lots of friends to talk to, but I don't most of my friends have drifted away over the years. I probably wouldn't talk to them anyway because I feel silly sharing things like this, even with my husband.
oh well I think it is time to go try to lighten up a bit, this is a little serious for my second post!! lol.
On a different note, when Joey gets home tomorrow I will get him to help me post some pics.

Number 1

This is my first post of my first blog. It is kind of exciting actually. I decided to do this because it seems to be helping some people with their weight watchers journey. This is my 4th time trying weight watchers, hence the blog name. It feels right this time so I am going to do all I can to keep things fresh and to stay successful. I know there will be setbacks and gains but I will overcome them and reach my goal weight. I have a lot of weight to lose but I'm taking it one day at a time. I have lost 34 lbs since the last week in Feb. so I know I can do it. Anyway, I guess that's all for now, I'll think 0f more to put here later.