Santa

Arianna had her first Santa pic today, and I must admit she was such a good girl....:) She has been a lot more content the past couple of days, which really makes me happy!

Here is her pic http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=193926&l=9de40&id=796880371
her cheeks are so big and squeezable lol.
I made some peanut butter cups to give as gifts today, and tomorrow I'll be making turtles and short breads, I always give something homemade and something else for Christmas, and this year since money is a bit tight, we are making these things and Giving a pic of Arianna in a nice frame. Everyone says not to bother giving them anything, but I love giving gifts!! I hope the turtles turn out OK, as I have never made them before, but I'm sure they will.

I honestly can't wait to get back to healthy eating and planning again because I will feel much better mentally and physically, and I can't wait to be proud of myself again. I was so proud and felt so good when I lost the weight before. I'm trying not to beat myself up because I just had a baby, but I can't help it. I'm disappointed that I was able to wear jeans from before I lost the weight :( but I'll lose them all again and more. It's going to be hard doing it on my own, but I'll have to stay excited by using stickers on the calendar again. It really worked last time!!

Anyway, I guess I am asking Santa for motivation, and the will to succeed!

It's getting close

Well it's now really close to Christmas, and I'm trying to get excited. We are going home to Cape Breton, and while it will be great to see everyone, it's going to be crazy. I think we are expected to visit lots of people, and honestly with a baby who is pretty fussy all the time, I am putting my foot down and not running all over the place, they can feel free to visit if they want. :)

The baby is still pretty fussy every day, which is super hard but when she smiles it makes everything better. I am a bit nervous about Joey going back to work but I should be fine.
My plan is to get back to healthy eating in the New Year, but it will take a lot of planning and prep work to make a go of things. At least with me cooking healthy, Joey will benefit too, so that's a bonus. I am also still planning to exercise which will be tough when I am tired already from looking after princess fussypants. I will have to make the most of my time and make sure that I am always prepared with a solid plan.
So I have lots of goals I just need to act on them!! I have to admit that it excites me just to be planning this.

Anyway, I'm working hard on getting ready for Christmas and everything else I need to do.

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I'm trying really hard to get motivated and happy, not just for weightloss but for everything. I guess sleep deprivation affects everything these days. I'm eating everything in sight but that will change.

I am positive that it is going to change because I remember how great I felt last year when I was trying on clothes and smaller sizes fit. I was also getting so many compliments, and I started feeling good about myself for the first time ever! I also know that exercise is just as important as diet for my success, and I feel so confident when I am getting more fit and I can see the results. I loved going to the gym, and while that is not possible now, we are saving for a treadmill, and we have weights and stuff here to work out on.

I know I can do this, I will get motivated, and I will be fit and healthy again. I am just going to plan things out, become organized, and reward myself with things that matter instead of food. I will also continue to read the blogs that inspire me and make me want to make the right food choices, especially Angie all the way. I love the idea of taking pics of the meals and snacks to help with accountability and I plan to do this too.

Anyway, there it is. I will try hard to keep my motivation and make the changes necessary for me. I have to say that before I wrote this out I was feeling sad and having a pity party, but now I feel much better, because I know what I have to do, I have the tools to do it, and I just have to look within myself for the strength to make it happen :)

I'm back!

It's been too long! So many things have happened since my last post, but I'll keep it brief because I don't want to write a book.
-We moved into our new home in May

-I was put off work due to high blood pressure in pregnancy, and since my 6 month probation period was not quite finished yet, my employer fired me. They say it's because I used too many sick days. Oh well :(

-I finished my courses, and worked harder than I have ever worked at anything before, and I still managed to fail one. boo to that.

-I had a healthy baby girl on Nov. 3rd, and I am trying to be a great mom, and keep my sanity all at once. The Jury is still out on how I'm actually doing, I cry every night but things seem to get a bit better as the days go by.

So I'm sure that there's lots more, but that's just the reader's digest condensed version. I gained quite a few pounds during pregnancy, and I have about 40 left to lose, but I know that I am not in the right place mentally to lose weight now, so I'm waiting until the New Year to recommit.
I have to do it on my own this time because I can't afford meetings, so we will see how strong my will is!

Joey bought me a Bosu ball for Christmas so that I can still do the exercises that the personal trainer showed me, which is awesome because I have wanted one for so long. I also want a treadmill, but with a new house, new baby and no job, I guess I'll have to wait quite a while for that!
Anyway, I guess that's all for now. I'm going to try to keep this updated for my own accountability, and once I'm fully on track, I'm going to try and post pics of my meals like some other bloggers do. I love looking at the healthy food pics, it motivates me so much.
more tomorrow :)