Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Short week

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Thank God that this is a short week, I am really enjoying being back at work, but we are all sick, and I am really stressed over the daycare situation. Arianna cried all day yesterday, and we kept her out sick today, but I am just terrified that she is not going to settle. I really hope that going to work was not a mistake and that I can make everything work.

I miss being home, and I really miss having friends that I can call and go out for a chat or have tea with. I need to find balance and happiness.

I am really hoping to get a good sleep tonight, I need it!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Awesome Give away + quick life update!

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So it's been a few days since I've posted anything but it's been busy around here lately! I got my old job back, and I started today. I am really happy to be working again, and although I really missed Arianna today, I think this will be excellent for both of us.

Now is the time when my planning and determination to lose weight will really be challenged though, because I will have to plan my lunches and suppers and find the time and energy to fit in workouts. It will be good though and I am happy that I am signed up for bootycamp and the learn to run clinic because now I am more motivated to exercise on these days.

I will post my meals and planning when I have a chance to sit and figure everything out, just to keep me accountable.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Hurts so good

So last night was my second Booty Camp Session, and it was just as intense (if not a bit more) than the first. I realized that there are some things that I have a lot of trouble with, like crab walks, and walking planks. I also have to be a bit more confident in myself especially when working with partners, but that will come with time.

Even though at times my legs were shaking and my lungs felt like exploding, I kept going and I gave it my all. I am hoping to get as much as I can out of this, and hopefully I will be able to sign up again either in the summer or fall, depending on Joey's schedule.

I am loving bootycamp and the feeling I am getting from pushing my self and not giving up!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Ow My booty!!

So I had my first bootycamp fitness session last night and it rocked!! I have only ever taken one other fitness class with other people before, and that was yoga, so I really wasn't sure what to expect. I have read peoples blog reviews and so from that I knew that I was in for quite a workout, and I must admit that I was terrified! I haven't been exercising regularly for the past couple of months, and I knew that I would be the biggest one there, but I figured I'd check it out and give it 100% after all I am not doing this for anyone but myself.

I was pretty intimidated and nervous when I first got there and everyone was thin and seemed like they were in good shape, I was also the only one there who wasn't with someone that they knew already, but once the class started It didn't matter what else was going on, I focused on the exercises and working as hard as I could.
Some things were harder than others, like burpees, and some things I will definitely have to build up my endurance for, like jogging, bit all in all I really enjoyed my first experience.

As the evening went on I soon discovered that most of the other ladies were in the same boat as me, not knowing what to expect, and knowing that they would definitely be feeling the soreness the next day :P as of right now I love bootycamp and I am so glad that I got picked to experience this 4 week camp.

Now I just need to find the motivation to eat clean so that I can get fit, and healthy and work towards my goal of one day helping others with their weight loss and fitness needs.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Finding Myself

I feel lost. I honestly don't know where to start, I am unhappy with myself and this is affecting my daily life, and my relationship with my husband.
I don't know who I am, or where I belong. I just wish I could be happy and live instead of thinking about everything that I am not, and all of the things that I have done wrong.
I was so happy once......

Monday, May 3, 2010


I think my interview went ok it's just a waiting game. I am really hoping to get my job back but I still have some issues that are causing me stress there too.

My eats were ok until this evening, I had some fruit which was good, but then I had some veggie chip things that Joey got at Costco, and they had to be fried. They tasted so good, but I could see and feel the grease...oh well it truly could have been much worse considering the fact that I found out a very close family member has skin cancer, and quite possibly serious Melanoma. I am in the dark as to most of the details, but right now I am feeling sad and stressed and scared about the outcome.
I will be going to bed tonight praying for health and good news.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Lazy Sunday

So today was a write off, I napped instead of exercising and I ordered takeout instead of cooking. I'm not beating myself up over it but I know that my choices could have been much better.

The evening was spent looking at child care places in case tomorrow's interview goes well, hopefully it does because I'm starting to run out of options.
If I do start work again, I'm hoping to find my food motivation again because I will have to plan my lunches, snacks etc ahead of time, but I'll also have to work hard to stay organized and on top of things regarding exercise and suppers. It's all too easy to just grab something after work rather than cooking, but now I have to think about Arianna's diet as well, so that's something.

I am starting bootycamp on thursday, and I am so nervous/excited!! I think I'll try something new every month or so to keep things fresh. so far I have
May- bootycamp
June/July- Learn to run

I feel crazy for signing up for these things at my size, but I obviously need the push that group fitness will give me.

So now I'm getting ready to head to bed and prepare for my interview.....everything is crossed that I get MY job back!