I can honestly say that I had the worst/craziest week ever.
On tuesday I found out that I was pregnant, and I was so excited but scared. I was scared because 5 years ago I had a miscarriage and I knew that I was probably at a high risk this time too. So Joey and I were trying not to talk about it, but we eventually ended up in the baby section at walmart, planning and laughing. we were so excited...then last night I started bleeding, I had to go to work, which was terrible. I went to the doctor and he said that I was miscarrying, and my levels show that this would not have been a viable pregnancy anyway. I am really sad but I'll be ok eventually.
Also today I got a phone call offering me a job, with awesome hours, full benefits and a pension plan. This is quite a big decision to make on a day like today, but I said yes, and I'll end up working 2 jobs for the time being until I give my notice, etc. oh well, I'll deal.
Also Joey is going away monday for 2 weeks! This sucks because I couldn't need him more than right now, but he has to sail on another ship. It is only a short sail so I should be ok.
Add to this the fact that I had my first personal training session (which was awesome) and had to cancel my second, to give my body some time off and it makes for a crazy week.
So now I have to pick myself up, get back on track and stay strong. I can do this.
20 Years of Grief
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