It's been a while

I honestly don't know what's wrong with me lately, I just can't keep myself motivated for a second. I'm eating crap that I don't want or need and I'm not exercising like I should be.

The baby has been sick for a while, add in a 39.9 celsius temperature, a trip to ER and night time waking issues and that could explain some of the stress eating. Also I am not home so I don't have access to my workout stuff and the food choices here are not ideal, but these are just excuses. I've been doing this long enough to know that the situation can't always be perfect, and I have to make the best of what I have available. I just wish I had someone to kick me in the butt and help me get my motivation back.

Since I don't have that I'll just keep swimming against the current until I make it. I can and will do this.
I will not be a fat mom, that is a promise.

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Rough Week

Just a quick update post, hopefully I'll be back to normal (or as close as I can get ) tomorrow.

I got the spot that I wanted in the daycare, and Arianna really liked it, but I wasn't even considered for the job :( so bye bye daycare.
The week started out with major anxiety waiting for word on the job, and ended with major disappointment about not even being considered for a job that I enjoyed and did really well.

Due to the stress and wacky eating/ hormone shifts etc I am up 1.2 lbs. I am totally ok with that, I am back on track and ran today. Onward and upward.
Hopefully now I'll be able to sleep and get things done, instead of stressing and worrying. I have a to do list the size of my arm and I gotta get working on it!!

night night :)

Boring Sunday

This weekend seemed to crawl by! Of course when you are waiting for something that's what happens. I am still waiting for word on the job and Daycare situation.

I was so anxious on Friday that I thought I would pass out, so I took to the treadmill and ran off some energy. Yesterday was a really snacky day and I just couldn't get full, but I tracked everything and didn't do too badly. I did my exercise in the evening since I needed a nap in the afternoon and that combination meant that I did not get to sleep until 1am *gag*

Today was exercise rest day so I had another nap, hopefully it doesn't mess my sleep up tonight. I know that my mind will be racing anyway until I hear about the job situation, but hopefully I'll get some sleep.

Tomorrow's plan is to run 2 minutes and walk 1, we'll see how it goes.
I'm also going to eat cleaner this week because I have 12lbs to go until I reach my first mini goal of 299 lbs. It's been years since I've seen that number.

lata peeps

Possibilities

So today was an up and down kind of day, I dropped by my old workplace for a visit and found out that my old job is opening up. I was thinking about it and decided to try for the position.
It couldn't be better hours (finished by 3:45 Pm) monday to friday, I know all of the clients, and I enjoyed the work. I feel sad about the possibility of not being a stay at home mom, and I'll miss Arianna like crazy, but in order to provide extras and have some security, I need to work.

I've been in contact with a daycare and I have my fingers crossed that when they call back on Friday I'll have a daycare spot. I just feel like this is meant to be, and I am praying that everything lines up and comes through.

I did my run today, and it felt good, I'm still doing 90 seconds running and 1 min walking but it's getting better. my eating is going well, not fully clean but I'm sticking to my points and measuring things again.
I am so excited that in 6 weeks Joey will be back, it's been a long 4 months!!

I'm off to bed, it's been a hectic day!

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Arianna is still pretty sick so we're taking it easy today. We're not going to make it to the Deployment briefing, but we'll go down and do our video call later. Our time is 6:10 pm so I hope she's not too cranky then.
If she's not better tomorrow, it looks like another trip to the doctor.

Today is my off day for exercise so nothing to report there.
I applied for a couple of jobs lately, so fingers crossed that something comes through!

TTFN,
Jenn