So tired

I am exhausted today!! it almost feels like I can't function. I am also feeling very overwhelmed by life today, there's so much that needs to be done and I don't have the time or energy to do it!! I did get a walk in, which makes me happy, but I also felt like I was going to pass out or collapse. I don't know what else I can do but keep trying. anyway, I'll try to write more later, I have my first product to review!! yay.

Changes

Today's post is about changes, I am very happy about summer changing to fall and now I am trying to inspire some changes in myself.
-I am back on track with ww for the most part and I have gotten back into exercise again, slowly but surely!
-I am getting a bit more energy every day and I am glad that I found out about my low thyroid.
-My course starts Oct 1 and although I am nervous, I am also excited about the possibility of graduating and moving on to the next step(whatever that is) in the spring
-my new job is great and I am excited about the extra money, but it also sucks that it is only until November.

The only thing that is really bothering me right now is my relationship with my husband. I honestly love him with all my heart and he is my best friend, but I am feeling a lot of mixed feelings around him lately. It seems like he doesn't care about anything and he expects many things to be on his terms. Don't get me wrong, he is not abusive, and he puts up with a lot of shit from me, but I wish there was more support and discussion. I have a hard time talking about things with him and I wish he cared more. I see a desperate need for changes here because I'm afraid that if something doesn't change, our love might not be enough.

anyway, enough about that. I am just so happy that it's fall because it always feels like a time for starting over and refreshing after the summer. Who doesn't need that once in a while?
Jenn

So it's been a while again! I have been keeping busy with work, and some family are visiting from Cape Breton. I love having visitors but I had to lay down the law a little about the use of margarine and oil!! See my grandfather does all the cooking..by choice and he cooks healthy foods but uses too much margarine and oil. After a few gentle reminders he didn't use as much as usual.
On another note, I totally shocked myself when I stepped on the scale at my meeting and saw that I have lost 50 pounds!!!!!!!! I was so excited. I have been in weight watchers since Feb 23 and I am happy with my progress so far. I have had some bad weeks but I always get back on track and keep going!
I start my new job Monday, the same day as Joey comes home. I am excited about the job but I am nervous as well. I am really excited about Joey coming home, it gets really boring and lonely around here without him.
The last night at my old job turned out to be pretty eventful too, I had to call 911 about a fire set outside the house across the street, I gave a statement to a super hot police officer, and then I was up most of the night because of an intense lightening storm that knocked out our power, so I had to monitor the alarm system!!! That may have been the busiest night since I started there!!
Anyway, I guess that's all the excitement I have for now!

Lazy Sunday!

I'm pretty sure I'm back to normal weight wise now, which is good. I feel better now that I'm getting my veggies and water in again, it's amazing how much of a difference it makes.
I had a great walk yesterday, 6.8k in 80 Min's, I decided to take a new route and see where it took me and I'm glad that I did. I am really struggling to get my butt out and walk today too, this always happens when I leave it too late in the day, I obsess over the fact that I didn't exercise, but I think I'll take an evening walk after supper for a change today. I wish I knew why it's so hard to get motivated to do anything lately.
I guess that's all, I'm off to mope around I guess.

Wow

So a lot has happened since my last post. Joey only came home for 1 week and then he had to leave today again for the arctic. He'll be gone for 20 days this time, we had a great week together though. we went to Cape Breton for a pool party and fireworks, we went to the waterfront, we went to dinner and a movie and we had a picnic in a cute picnic park. It was great but I am up a few pounds. I'm hoping it's mostly water weight and that I will be able to get it off by next weigh in. I skipped weigh in yesterday, which I kn ow is bad but I was super stressed about the weight gain. I am ready to get back on track, although the vacation was nice.
On another note, I got the job I was talking about earlier, it's not day shift though, it's evenings and awake overnights. I was going to say no but it is a great chance to get lots of training and experience in the field. I took the part time instead of the full time so hopefully this will work out and become permanent.
Oh well, I guess that's all, off to another boring weekend alone!
Jenn

2 years!!

Yesterday was our 2 year anniversary! Hard to believe that Joey and I have been married for 2 years already! I was a little down because Joey has been gone for 3 weeks and won't be home until July 28th but thanks to some kind words and cyber hugs from the ww.ca people, the day got better. There were a lot of suggestions to get together with friends, which made me realize that the reason I don't really have any friends is because I have slowly pushed them away. I don't know why I did this, I just know it's time to fix this if I can because I used to love getting together with friends so much, and I miss that.
So Joey was able to call, which was awesome, because I haven't heard his voice since canada day!
There is a new job posting at work, dayshift and twice the money, for 3 months and then I would go back to my old job, I really want to get this but I am so nervous to apply and it will cut into my time with joey when he comes home, but I am seriously thinking about applying. I am high enough on seniority that I may have a reasonable shot at getting it. Oh well I will think about it overnight.
Anyway, I guess I'm off to exercise even though it is pretty hot out.....yuck.
Take care,
Jenn

TGIF

I am so happy that today is friday!! I worked 2 double shifts this week and they were good shifts but I'm tired. I really miss Joey today too. Only 2 weeks until he gets home!!
Weigh in this week was awesome, I lost 3.4 for a total of 42.4!! It feels great. I had a great walk today too, 5.4k in 64 mins. It was so hot today too, we are finally getting some summer weather. I am getting up early tomorrow to walk so that I don't get as hot as I did today.
So I tried cherries last night for the first time and I loooove them!!! The only place I could find some though was costco so I had to buy a 4lb box of them, which is good because they have a short season and I'm going to freeze some to have later in the year.
The tall ships are in town and I'd love to go and see them but I'm not good in crowds unless I have someone to go with, mainly Joey, so I'm not going. I'll just try to think of something for us to do when he comes home. Well I guess that's all, I live a very boring life,
Jenn