It's getting close

Well it's now really close to Christmas, and I'm trying to get excited. We are going home to Cape Breton, and while it will be great to see everyone, it's going to be crazy. I think we are expected to visit lots of people, and honestly with a baby who is pretty fussy all the time, I am putting my foot down and not running all over the place, they can feel free to visit if they want. :)

The baby is still pretty fussy every day, which is super hard but when she smiles it makes everything better. I am a bit nervous about Joey going back to work but I should be fine.
My plan is to get back to healthy eating in the New Year, but it will take a lot of planning and prep work to make a go of things. At least with me cooking healthy, Joey will benefit too, so that's a bonus. I am also still planning to exercise which will be tough when I am tired already from looking after princess fussypants. I will have to make the most of my time and make sure that I am always prepared with a solid plan.
So I have lots of goals I just need to act on them!! I have to admit that it excites me just to be planning this.

Anyway, I'm working hard on getting ready for Christmas and everything else I need to do.

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I'm trying really hard to get motivated and happy, not just for weightloss but for everything. I guess sleep deprivation affects everything these days. I'm eating everything in sight but that will change.

I am positive that it is going to change because I remember how great I felt last year when I was trying on clothes and smaller sizes fit. I was also getting so many compliments, and I started feeling good about myself for the first time ever! I also know that exercise is just as important as diet for my success, and I feel so confident when I am getting more fit and I can see the results. I loved going to the gym, and while that is not possible now, we are saving for a treadmill, and we have weights and stuff here to work out on.

I know I can do this, I will get motivated, and I will be fit and healthy again. I am just going to plan things out, become organized, and reward myself with things that matter instead of food. I will also continue to read the blogs that inspire me and make me want to make the right food choices, especially Angie all the way. I love the idea of taking pics of the meals and snacks to help with accountability and I plan to do this too.

Anyway, there it is. I will try hard to keep my motivation and make the changes necessary for me. I have to say that before I wrote this out I was feeling sad and having a pity party, but now I feel much better, because I know what I have to do, I have the tools to do it, and I just have to look within myself for the strength to make it happen :)

I'm back!

It's been too long! So many things have happened since my last post, but I'll keep it brief because I don't want to write a book.
-We moved into our new home in May

-I was put off work due to high blood pressure in pregnancy, and since my 6 month probation period was not quite finished yet, my employer fired me. They say it's because I used too many sick days. Oh well :(

-I finished my courses, and worked harder than I have ever worked at anything before, and I still managed to fail one. boo to that.

-I had a healthy baby girl on Nov. 3rd, and I am trying to be a great mom, and keep my sanity all at once. The Jury is still out on how I'm actually doing, I cry every night but things seem to get a bit better as the days go by.

So I'm sure that there's lots more, but that's just the reader's digest condensed version. I gained quite a few pounds during pregnancy, and I have about 40 left to lose, but I know that I am not in the right place mentally to lose weight now, so I'm waiting until the New Year to recommit.
I have to do it on my own this time because I can't afford meetings, so we will see how strong my will is!

Joey bought me a Bosu ball for Christmas so that I can still do the exercises that the personal trainer showed me, which is awesome because I have wanted one for so long. I also want a treadmill, but with a new house, new baby and no job, I guess I'll have to wait quite a while for that!
Anyway, I guess that's all for now. I'm going to try to keep this updated for my own accountability, and once I'm fully on track, I'm going to try and post pics of my meals like some other bloggers do. I love looking at the healthy food pics, it motivates me so much.
more tomorrow :)

Sunny Sunday

Today was a great but busy day. We bought some furniture for the living room. We went to 3 places and then went back to Leon's which was the first place that we visited. We decided on a leather sofa and love seat, and we bought the coffee and end tables as part of the package,
We will eventually get a chair and an area rug to add some color to the room.
The guy at Ashley was really helpful when talking about fabric types and color pairings but we couldn't afford the set that we really wanted there. We may go back there for a chair though.

The house will be finished within the next week or so which is exciting and scary all at once. I can't wait to move, but I am still having such a hard time getting motivated and organized. If it wasn't for Joey, I don't know what I'd do!! He is so great, and has done a lot of packing so far.

So far this pregnancy is going well too. I am so excited that I heard the heart beat, and that I am feeling relatively well. I am still waiting for an ultrasound, I am really anxious to know exactly how far along I am, and find out my due date. I am sick some evenings, but it's not bad so I've been blessed so far.
I am still quite tired but this is the latest that I have stayed up for a while.....It's 9pm...lol.
I am just feeling so excited and blessed to be pregnant, and I thank God every day for letting me feel this Joy.

As for my diet, it has not been great, but I am trying hard to eat healthy meals so that the baby will be healthy and that hopefully there will be no serious complications with this pregnancy.

So after that long winded update, I guess that's all for now.

My Update

It's been way too long!! I was having serious problems sticking to ww and going to the gym. I have been falling asleep right after work, and found that I have no energy all day long.
I went to the doctor because I figured that my thyroid meds needed an increase or something, but it turns out that the levels are fine.......I'm pregnant!!! I'm really nervous because of the 2 miscarriages that I've had, and it's really hard to say how far along I am because I didn't get a period since the last miscarriage. I have to go for an early ultrasound, and I'm praying that it's soon so that I can find out if everything is ok.

So that's my update, and for now I'm trying to relax and take it easy!

Another storm??

So there is a freezing rain warning for tomorrow, and I just hope that if it happens, it is enough to cancel work for the day....but I highly doubt it.
I am still really tired but I am planning to go back to the gym and get back on track tomorrow.
We are still working on the house stuff, my new job may mess things up because of the probation period, but the guy who is figuring out the finances says he's 95% sure that we will get it. All of this stress is really affecting my eating, but I can't let it anymore!

I still have the goal that I would like to start running, and I am really looking forward to being able to fit into all of the cute workout clothes in sport check, and Lululemon when it finally comes here.
I can do this!

Another Stormy Saturday

I hope that it's true when they say that march comes in like a lion, and goes out like a lamb. I'm finding it hard to believe that It's march 1st already. I'm so disappointed in myself that I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 weeks!! I'll definately have to go tomorrow. I am feeling very tired and headachy this past week, and even took a sick day on Friday. I felt bad because I know that there was lots to do at work, but I really needed the day. I stayed in bed until noon, and I still felt tired.
On the homed front, it looks like we will be moving soon!! we are buying a new home in a New subdivision in Eastern Passage! I am so excited, but nervous as well because there is so much stress around buying a home! I just hope that everything works out ok.
The weather is pretty bad, as it is snowy and windy so we are just staying in and watching "the Evil Dead" and snacking on things that I am afraid to mention here, yep definately going to the gym tomorrow!!

I am going to try the core plan again this week, as it wasn't too bad this week and it will be even better when I'm exercising again.

Take care,
Jenn