Week from hell

I can honestly say that I had the worst/craziest week ever.
On tuesday I found out that I was pregnant, and I was so excited but scared. I was scared because 5 years ago I had a miscarriage and I knew that I was probably at a high risk this time too. So Joey and I were trying not to talk about it, but we eventually ended up in the baby section at walmart, planning and laughing. we were so excited...then last night I started bleeding, I had to go to work, which was terrible. I went to the doctor and he said that I was miscarrying, and my levels show that this would not have been a viable pregnancy anyway. I am really sad but I'll be ok eventually.
Also today I got a phone call offering me a job, with awesome hours, full benefits and a pension plan. This is quite a big decision to make on a day like today, but I said yes, and I'll end up working 2 jobs for the time being until I give my notice, etc. oh well, I'll deal.

Also Joey is going away monday for 2 weeks! This sucks because I couldn't need him more than right now, but he has to sail on another ship. It is only a short sail so I should be ok.
Add to this the fact that I had my first personal training session (which was awesome) and had to cancel my second, to give my body some time off and it makes for a crazy week.

So now I have to pick myself up, get back on track and stay strong. I can do this.

Sunday

Today was a lazy sunday for me, I didn't get dressed, and I didn't move too far from the couch. I was really busy though, writing a paper and catching up on my courses. I'm so glad to have one assignment done but I still have a long way to go to be caught up.

As for the weight watchers and exercise, I am doing very well. I started a calendar to keep track of my on program days, and I am using stickers, an idea which I borrowed from some other girls. I totally love getting the stickers, it is so exciting!! I bought Eeyore ones and Tinkerbell ones, and I get one for every day that I am on program. This includes eating properly, tracking everything, drinking my water, and exercising when I am scheduled to do so. On the exercise rest days I will still get a sticker because I am following my plan.
I totally love this idea, and it is definitely motivating me!

I have decided that I need to come up with a meal plan for suppers too, taking into account when I am working. This will make it easier to stay on track, and hopefully reduce the temptation to eat out as much as we have been.
All in all I feel really great lately, and I hope it continues. When I feel good it affects everything in my life for the better.
Have a great evening everyone!!

Weigh in day

So as I mentioned yesterday, today was weigh in. I had a gain of 1.6 which I'm really happy about because when I came back from Cape Breton I was up 10lbs on my scale. So now I have to lose 2 lbs to get back down to where I was before christmas.

I had a great workout today, I really pushed myself and felt great afterwards, then Joey went to the mall and I had a nap. It was such a great day. I have to talk to the trainer today and set up an appointment, probably for monday, I can't wait.

I also called the woman back about the job interview, I have a time set up for tuesday, hopefully I have a good shot at it because I think a change is exactly what I need right now.

Anyway, I guess that's all for now :)

Hump Day!!

I'm so glad that the weekend is almost here! I am stilll trying to recover from the holidays and I want to use the weekend to do some cleaning and organizing as well as catching up on some sleep.

I have my weigh in tomorrow, and I know that I have gained, but I am back on track and moving forward. I joined 2 challenges on the ww.ca board and I am going to work my hardest at achieving them. One is to get 1200 mins of activity in Jan. ant the other is to lose 10 lbs this month (I may not reach this one due to the gain that I am expecting, but I'm still going to try.
I am hoping that if I start the year strong, I will continue to get stronger over time!!

At the Gym tomorrow I am planning to book my first personal training session, which is a consultation. I got 5 sessions as gift from joey and I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I have never had a trainer before so I'm not really sure what to expect.

I got a message today that a place that I applied to wants me for an interview. By the time that I got home the place was closed so I'll call tomorrow and set up a time. This exciting too because as early as next week my current job hours are being cut. Although this job is less pay, it is more hours and the hours are much better. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it is what I'm looking for, and that I'm what they're looking for. I applied to a couple of other jobs too, but so far no word.
Well I guess that's all for tonight, I'm going to bed.
More soon!

New Year's eve

I am finding it hard to believe that 2007 will be over in less than 2 hours! I am excited for the new year because I am going to use it as a fresh start and a chance to be the person that I know I can be.
Although I accomplished 70lbs of weight loss in 2007, and started an exercise program, I still had a hard year and I am hoping that 2008 will be better.
I would like to accomplish many things in 2008 but I will not put too much pressure on myself to succeed, as long as I take baby steps towards my goals I will be fine.
Here are some goals for 2008:
Stick to a budget- I have to stop spending so much money on things that I don't need just because I'm bored or lonely.
Stop obsessing over things I want to buy- I have to realize that I can't get everything that I want, and to be satisfied with what I have and how fortunate I am. (this is a big one for me!!)
Find a new job that pays well- I am hoping that this happens this year sometime.
Have confidence in my abilities and myself- this is big too because the more confident that I am, the more chance of sucess that I have.
Decide which academic path to take- this will depend on if I get into any of the courses I am applying for, but If I don't I need a plan b,c,d, etc.

Some of my weight loss and fitness goals are:
Track everything- instead of just guessing and spinning my wheels
Stop eating takeout- this also ties in to the budgeting goal :)
weigh and measure and follow the WHOLE program!!
Don't reward myself with food, use things I want instead- this ties in with other goals as well!!
On thursday only eat 1 treat instead of having a whole treat day!!
Keep exercising to the best of my ability
Don't be ashamed to try running!!
And of course, eat the best possible foods that I can, not too much processed foods.

This is alot to change in one year, but I know that I can at least start on the path of all of these changes, for once, I have faith in myself!!!
Happy New Year everyone!

Here we go again

Ok so after quite a while of not writing, I have finally decided to update this.
I am still doing my courses and although I am a little behind, I think that all will be well. I am also still looking for a good job, and although I am feeling very discouraged, I am hoping that one comes along soon.
In the next few days I will be making a list of the things I hope to achieve, as well as the things that I would like to change about myself in the new year. I know that there are some things that I am too hard on myself about, but I am honestly going to reflect and look deep inside to see where I want to go with my life.
As for weight watchers, I am down 68lbs and although I have gone off track a little, I am slowly getting back there and I just have to start measuring and tracking again.
So it looks like I'll have a busy few days ahead of me, but it can only benefit me right??
I guess that's all for now!

Well after a couple of really bad days in the last couple of weeks, I'm feeling back to normal. Joey and I had an awesome talk and we are back on track.
I was bad last week and skipped weigh in, I really have to stop doing that and face the music. I'm going this week no matter what!! I may actually gain because I joined a gym this week and I am working different muscles than my usual work outs do. It feels awesome to be back at the gym, I missed it. I actually got a great rate, and they let me have a student rate even though I'm only taking 2 courses!! It seems like a great place and I feel comfortable there, which is so important to me.
I started my courses this weekend, I'm a little nervous but I need this to graduate and I am going to try my best.
I am still thinking about core because it might help my PCOS but I'm not sure yet how it will fit into my lifestyle.
That's all for now.
Jenn