4th time's a charm

Short week

2010-05-26T21:11:00.003-03:00

Check out Angie's blog here http://angiealltheway.blogspot.com/ to enter a great giveaway for Honeybars, but hurry the contest closes soon!!

Thank God that this is a short week, I am really enjoying being back at work, but we are all sick, and I am really stressed over the daycare situation. Arianna cried all day yesterday, and we kept her out sick today, but I am just terrified that she is not going to settle. I really hope that going to work was not a mistake and that I can make everything work.

I miss being home, and I really miss having friends that I can call and go out for a chat or have tea with. I need to find balance and happiness.

I am really hoping to get a good sleep tonight, I need it!

Awesome Give away + quick life update!

2010-05-19T21:56:00.002-03:00

Check out Jaime's blog here http://www.embracingbalance.com/2010/05/superlicious-giveaway.html for a chance to win an awesome sample pack of Vita Muffins.

So it's been a few days since I've posted anything but it's been busy around here lately! I got my old job back, and I started today. I am really happy to be working again, and although I really missed Arianna today, I think this will be excellent for both of us.

Now is the time when my planning and determination to lose weight will really be challenged though, because I will have to plan my lunches and suppers and find the time and energy to fit in workouts. It will be good though and I am happy that I am signed up for bootycamp and the learn to run clinic because now I am more motivated to exercise on these days.

I will post my meals and planning when I have a chance to sit and figure everything out, just to keep me accountable.

Hurts so good

2010-05-13T22:06:00.003-03:00

So last night was my second Booty Camp Session, and it was just as intense (if not a bit more) than the first. I realized that there are some things that I have a lot of trouble with, like crab walks, and walking planks. I also have to be a bit more confident in myself especially when working with partners, but that will come with time.

Even though at times my legs were shaking and my lungs felt like exploding, I kept going and I gave it my all. I am hoping to get as much as I can out of this, and hopefully I will be able to sign up again either in the summer or fall, depending on Joey's schedule.

I am loving bootycamp and the feeling I am getting from pushing my self and not giving up!!

Ow My booty!!

2010-05-11T21:04:00.002-03:00

So I had my first bootycamp fitness session last night and it rocked!! I have only ever taken one other fitness class with other people before, and that was yoga, so I really wasn't sure what to expect. I have read peoples blog reviews and so from that I knew that I was in for quite a workout, and I must admit that I was terrified! I haven't been exercising regularly for the past couple of months, and I knew that I would be the biggest one there, but I figured I'd check it out and give it 100% after all I am not doing this for anyone but myself.

I was pretty intimidated and nervous when I first got there and everyone was thin and seemed like they were in good shape, I was also the only one there who wasn't with someone that they knew already, but once the class started It didn't matter what else was going on, I focused on the exercises and working as hard as I could.
Some things were harder than others, like burpees, and some things I will definitely have to build up my endurance for, like jogging, bit all in all I really enjoyed my first experience.

As the evening went on I soon discovered that most of the other ladies were in the same boat as me, not knowing what to expect, and knowing that they would definitely be feeling the soreness the next day :P as of right now I love bootycamp and I am so glad that I got picked to experience this 4 week camp.

Now I just need to find the motivation to eat clean so that I can get fit, and healthy and work towards my goal of one day helping others with their weight loss and fitness needs.

Finding Myself

2010-05-08T20:19:00.002-03:00

I feel lost. I honestly don't know where to start, I am unhappy with myself and this is affecting my daily life, and my relationship with my husband.
I don't know who I am, or where I belong. I just wish I could be happy and live instead of thinking about everything that I am not, and all of the things that I have done wrong.
I was so happy once......

Drained

2010-05-03T22:29:00.002-03:00

I think my interview went ok today.....now it's just a waiting game. I am really hoping to get my job back but I still have some issues that are causing me stress there too.

My eats were ok until this evening, I had some fruit which was good, but then I had some veggie chip things that Joey got at Costco, and they had to be fried. They tasted so good, but I could see and feel the grease...oh well it truly could have been much worse considering the fact that I found out a very close family member has skin cancer, and quite possibly serious Melanoma. I am in the dark as to most of the details, but right now I am feeling sad and stressed and scared about the outcome.
I will be going to bed tonight praying for health and good news.

Lazy Sunday

2010-05-02T22:42:00.002-03:00

So today was a write off, I napped instead of exercising and I ordered takeout instead of cooking. I'm not beating myself up over it but I know that my choices could have been much better.

The evening was spent looking at child care places in case tomorrow's interview goes well, hopefully it does because I'm starting to run out of options.
If I do start work again, I'm hoping to find my food motivation again because I will have to plan my lunches, snacks etc ahead of time, but I'll also have to work hard to stay organized and on top of things regarding exercise and suppers. It's all too easy to just grab something after work rather than cooking, but now I have to think about Arianna's diet as well, so that's something.

I am starting bootycamp on thursday, and I am so nervous/excited!! I think I'll try something new every month or so to keep things fresh. so far I have
May- bootycamp
June/July- Learn to run

I feel crazy for signing up for these things at my size, but I obviously need the push that group fitness will give me.

So now I'm getting ready to head to bed and prepare for my interview.....everything is crossed that I get MY job back!

Squeaking by

2010-04-29T21:44:00.002-03:00

I'm slowly finding my groove again. I have been eating pretty clean since Monday....not 100% but clean enough to get rid of most of the water weight that I was holding on to. When I weighed myself on Monday I was 322.2 which is a gain of 10 lbs in a month, Yesterday I was 315.4 so I am getting there.

I also did day 1 and 2 of the Jillian Michaels ifit workouts for the treadmill this week. I find them quite challenging at some parts, and I am a sweaty mess after just 20 minutes.

Next week will be kind of exciting/stressful for me because I have a job interview for my old job, Joey goes back to work and I start bootycamp. On top of that, depending on how the interview goes, I may be looking for full time childcare. It will be interesting to see how I handle the stress.

I am hoping to start blogging more regularly and to just become more organized in general.

CheeCha contest

2010-04-16T12:14:00.001-03:00

Check out Ali's blog for a chance to win some awesome loot, honestly though I'm gonna win so don't bother entering ;) http://fatbutchanging.blogspot.com/2010/04/free-stuff-friday-thank-you-mario.html

Untitled

2010-04-15T21:50:00.002-03:00

So I'm sitting here, feeling sorry for myself about how fat and gross I feel but yet I had 2 sugar packed coolers, chocolate and nachos. I have to get over myself and stop stressing about all of the planning that needs to be done and actually do it.
I'm not going all or nothing with the clean eating and I'm going to learn to cut myself some slack.

Tomorrow I plan on having a healthy breakfast, and then I'm heading to a job interview (eek!!)
lunch will be leftover tuna casserole and salad, and supper is Joey's choice as a welcome home thing, so we are going for Chinese.....not the best choice, but after tomorrow things should settle down a bit.

my exercise plan for the rest of April is Walking with the baby in the stroller, doing Ifit on the treadmill and biggest loser Yoga.
In May I am signed up for the Booty Camp Fitness session, and although it will be killer, I can't wait. I also have a coupon from Brita for a free running room clinic, so I'm going to see if I can sign up for the June learn to run session.

I realize that Joey gets motivated once I get things started and so that means I must get the ball rolling ASAP for both of us!

Sprouted Bread giveaway

2010-04-15T19:57:00.002-03:00

Go over and check out Jamie's blog for a chance to win some great swag from Silver Hills.
http://www.embracingbalance.com/

Check out a great Blog

2010-04-13T20:35:00.002-03:00

Check out Scott's blog. He is celebrating 6 months of blogging and is such an inspiration.
you can check out his blog and the contest here http://www.yourinnerskinny.ca/2010/04/07/6-month-anniversary-and-giveaway

Happy Belated birthday

2010-04-11T21:11:00.002-03:00

well I meant to post about a million times since my birthday on April 2nd but things kept getting in the way.

I was in Cape Breton for 3 weeks, and Arianna was super sick, and whiny so the exercise and eating wasn't the best. I am up 3-4 lbs which sucks but I'll deal with it.
Joey is home now, and it seems like I've gone into vacation mode. I am not eating well, I can't remember the last time I've exercised and I have no desire or drive to do anything. Joey and I are notorious for being able to sabotage ourselves really well, but I'm working hard to change things for all of us.

The big thing is I have set a huge goal for myself. I have decided that since this is my last year in my 20's that I am giong to make it my healthiest and fittest year ever. I am hoping to lose 100 lbs by April 2, 2011. I hope I can do this. I usually don't like to set specific goals like this but as long as I give it everything I've got, I won't be disappointed with the results.

So here I am, back to basics. Clean eating, exercise including Cardio and strength, and planning and tracking everything. I have to succeed this time.

It's been a while

2010-03-24T20:08:00.002-03:00

I honestly don't know what's wrong with me lately, I just can't keep myself motivated for a second. I'm eating crap that I don't want or need and I'm not exercising like I should be.

The baby has been sick for a while, add in a 39.9 celsius temperature, a trip to ER and night time waking issues and that could explain some of the stress eating. Also I am not home so I don't have access to my workout stuff and the food choices here are not ideal, but these are just excuses. I've been doing this long enough to know that the situation can't always be perfect, and I have to make the best of what I have available. I just wish I had someone to kick me in the butt and help me get my motivation back.

Since I don't have that I'll just keep swimming against the current until I make it. I can and will do this.
I will not be a fat mom, that is a promise.

Super Giveaway

2010-03-16T22:21:00.001-03:00

Check out Jaime's blog for a chance to win Crofters Superfruit spread in 4 yummy flavours!!
http://www.embracingbalance.com/

Giveaway

2010-03-09T11:57:00.002-04:00

Check out these awesome new OPI Nail polish colors inspired by Alice in Wonderland, Jen is giving them away right here http://diaryofarealgirl.com/

Rough Week

2010-03-05T22:12:00.002-04:00

Just a quick update post, hopefully I'll be back to normal (or as close as I can get ) tomorrow.

I got the spot that I wanted in the daycare, and Arianna really liked it, but I wasn't even considered for the job :( so bye bye daycare.
The week started out with major anxiety waiting for word on the job, and ended with major disappointment about not even being considered for a job that I enjoyed and did really well.

Due to the stress and wacky eating/ hormone shifts etc I am up 1.2 lbs. I am totally ok with that, I am back on track and ran today. Onward and upward.
Hopefully now I'll be able to sleep and get things done, instead of stressing and worrying. I have a to do list the size of my arm and I gotta get working on it!!

night night :)

Boring Sunday

2010-02-28T19:52:00.002-04:00

This weekend seemed to crawl by! Of course when you are waiting for something that's what happens. I am still waiting for word on the job and Daycare situation.

I was so anxious on Friday that I thought I would pass out, so I took to the treadmill and ran off some energy. Yesterday was a really snacky day and I just couldn't get full, but I tracked everything and didn't do too badly. I did my exercise in the evening since I needed a nap in the afternoon and that combination meant that I did not get to sleep until 1am *gag*

Today was exercise rest day so I had another nap, hopefully it doesn't mess my sleep up tonight. I know that my mind will be racing anyway until I hear about the job situation, but hopefully I'll get some sleep.

Tomorrow's plan is to run 2 minutes and walk 1, we'll see how it goes.
I'm also going to eat cleaner this week because I have 12lbs to go until I reach my first mini goal of 299 lbs. It's been years since I've seen that number.

lata peeps

Possibilities

2010-02-23T21:13:00.002-04:00

So today was an up and down kind of day, I dropped by my old workplace for a visit and found out that my old job is opening up. I was thinking about it and decided to try for the position.
It couldn't be better hours (finished by 3:45 Pm) monday to friday, I know all of the clients, and I enjoyed the work. I feel sad about the possibility of not being a stay at home mom, and I'll miss Arianna like crazy, but in order to provide extras and have some security, I need to work.

I've been in contact with a daycare and I have my fingers crossed that when they call back on Friday I'll have a daycare spot. I just feel like this is meant to be, and I am praying that everything lines up and comes through.

I did my run today, and it felt good, I'm still doing 90 seconds running and 1 min walking but it's getting better. my eating is going well, not fully clean but I'm sticking to my points and measuring things again.
I am so excited that in 6 weeks Joey will be back, it's been a long 4 months!!

I'm off to bed, it's been a hectic day!

Run shirt Give away

2010-02-21T15:10:00.002-04:00

Happy Sunday, Check out Syl's blog to win a cute princess running shirt! http://www.livesmilerun.com/2010/02/give-away-fit-for-princess.html

Arianna is still pretty sick so we're taking it easy today. We're not going to make it to the Deployment briefing, but we'll go down and do our video call later. Our time is 6:10 pm so I hope she's not too cranky then.
If she's not better tomorrow, it looks like another trip to the doctor.

Today is my off day for exercise so nothing to report there.
I applied for a couple of jobs lately, so fingers crossed that something comes through!

TTFN,
Jenn

Another quick one

2010-02-20T23:11:00.002-04:00

Just a quick re-cap of my day because I am heading to bed ASAP!!

Arianna is still sick :(
Tomorrow we have a 5 minute video call with Joey!!
I RAN TODAY!!! (finally after putting it off for days) it felt great too!!
I started working on the basement again, and it looks bad now, but once I clean out all of the junk it will be great!

That is all for me today

Nighty night peeps!!

Finally Friday

2010-02-19T20:05:00.002-04:00

Not that Friday means anything different to me, but most folks are happy that the weekend is finally here.
I was exhausted today and felt like I was in a fog all day and it was really bothering me, but I think it may be mood related. I have lost my momentum since I was sick, but tonight I am making a plan for the week and looking forward.

Arianna has a tonsil infection, so we aren't able to be around any kiddies for a few days, but she should be ok by sunday when we have our monthly deployment briefing, and 5 minute video call with Hubby!! Yay!

Hubby may be coming home a month early, so that means in 6.5 weeks he could be here! I am keeping my fingers crossed because I miss him so much.

Fantastic news too, I won a 4 week session at Booty Camp Fitness!!http://www.bootycampfitness.com/ I am so excited because I've been seeing reviews in the blog world and it looks like an awesome workout!! I am trying to get the details straightened out for when etc, as it will have to be when Joey is home! A huge thanks ti Skinny Me for offering the contest!! http://weightwatcher76.blogspot.com/

I finally got to try my new IFIT videos for the treadmill too. I have level 1, 2 and 3 of Jillian Michael's lose weight series. The thing that I love about these cards is that they change the intensity and incline for you.
The workout started out a little slow, but soon I was sweating and climbing hills, with a max incline of 7% it was a great workout and Jillian gave random tricks and encouragement throughout the 20 minute workout. It was only day 1 but I enjoyed it so far. Level 1 is designed to be done 3x per week for 6 weeks, so we'll see how it goes.
I'm going to give running another try tomorrow, but I'm not going to stress over it (yeah right....lol)

Anyway, I blabbed on enough for tonight, Happy Friday!

Quick Post

2010-02-17T21:31:00.002-04:00

I'm going to make this quick because I need to go to bed.....I'm sooo tired tonight.

No run today, I had to shovel snow for 80 minutes instead. We had a few feet in the Driveway
I'm going slightly shack wacky
I tracked all of my foods today
I am starting to freak out about money/job issues but I am not stress eating!
I really miss my husband and I am feeling a little exhausted and overwhelmed.
Another day is over and tomorrow is a blank canvas.

Goodnight :)

5th Time's a charm??

2010-02-16T22:10:00.002-04:00

Yep, I am once again a paying Weight Watchers customer. I need the accountability, and I really like the points tracker/recipe builder. I am just going to eat as clean as possible....it's not all or nothing.

I took A for a walk today, I figured we could both use the fresh air after the weekend of sickness. I am hoping all that has passed, even though my stomach feels a little icky from time to time.

Tomorrow is a run day, I'm hoping I didn't set myself back too far by not running since Friday but I'll see what happens.

I am stressing a little over the fact that I will probably have to get a job when Joey comes home. I was really hoping to be successful at Pampered Chef. I just wish I could figure something out.

Anyway, I'm off to bed and hopefully I'm not as restless as I was last night.

Pop chips giveaway

2010-02-15T20:12:00.002-04:00

Check out Jaime's blog for a great giveaway!
http://www.embracingbalance.com/

So I was still feeling crappy all day yesterday, and most of today, but I actually have an appetite right now, so that's a good sign. I am hoping to get in some form of exercise tomorrow, although I'm not sure yet if it will be a run. It depends on the energy situation.

I really need to really get serious about tracking and weighing/measuring my food again. I have been coasting for a little while, and I am not seeing the results that I want to see. I am also planning to write out some goals and things that I wish to accomplish in the near future both in weight loss and life in general.
I am kicking and screaming my way back to the surface so stay tuned for my transformation :)

Sick Saturday

2010-02-13T20:38:00.002-04:00

So I felt OK yesterday, and ended up doing my run, but so far today I am feeling terrible. I am achy, cold, stuffed up and I have zero energy which makes taking care of a 15 month old a little challenging.

Tomorrow is another planned run day, but I'll have to see how I feel. If it's anything like right now, I will collapse on the treadmill.

Joey called today, it was so nice to hear his voice, but I hate letting him go. I miss him so much today. We're supposed to go to a deployment activity tomorrow, but I'm thinking that I won't be feeling up to it.

I guess I'm just a little bummed that I am working hard at being healthy, but I end up getting every bug going.

oh well, hopefully better days ahead!

Week 3

2010-02-11T19:44:00.002-04:00

So I am doing my own learn to run program, based on the couch to 5k and Running room programs. In week 3 I run 90 seconds and walk 1 minute with a 5 min warm up and cool down. I have to admit I was really nervous because I didn't really think I would be able to run any longer than 1 min. Yesterday was my first run of week 3, and although I had to lower the speed to 4.5 mph, I was able to run 90 seconds/walk 1 min 6 times!! I used to be worried what others would think about my speed and if I should even say that I am running, but now I don't care! I am over 300lbs and I am running!!
Tomorrow is a scheduled run day, and I think I am getting a cold, but I am still going to try my best to run. If it is too much I will walk, but at least I'll try.

The eats went well today, I had a kids pot luck at playgroup, but I didn't eat anything because tomorrow is weigh in. I skipped lunch in favor of a nap when Arianna went down because I had a massive headache, and I didn't drink enough water today, but tomorrow is a new day.

I am working on getting organized with meal planning and clean eating, but that is a work in progress.

I think it is time to chill on the couch with some water and a big juicy orange for vitamin C. Blah I hope I am not getting sick!!

Quicken Giveaway

2010-02-10T12:28:00.001-04:00

Check out Last night's leftovers for a great quicken giveaway. I've been meaning to try this program for a while, because seriously who couldn't use some help with money management??

Check it out here http://last-nights-leftovers.com/

Lazy Sunday

2010-02-07T15:51:00.002-04:00

Well not really that lazy, because I cleaned the main level and made a couple of batches of home made Larabars, but I'm still in my jammies and I have no intention of getting dressed. Arioanna is still in Jammies too and I think she likes days like today.

I thought about going for a walk but it's still freezing out and I'm just too cold lately to venture out. Tomorrow I have to run anyway so a rest day is good.
Tomorrow is the last day of run 1min walk 1 min, and I figure in order to run 1:30 I will have to lower the speed, but I am willing to do what ever it takes to keep running. I am toying with the idea of registering for the bluenose 5k run but I'm terrified at the thought and afraid that I will fail.
I am working on it and it would be something great that I can do for me!

well, I guess that's it. 12 weeks until Joey comes home!!

Check it out!

2010-02-01T22:46:00.002-04:00

Go over and check out Skinny Me's blog and enter to win a book that seems like a great read for those of us who have problems with over eating. http://weightwatcher76.blogspot.com

Today was a good day. We went to a play group, so I got lots of exercise chasing Arianna around, and then we relaxed this afternoon. After Arianna went to bed I had planned on doing a treadmill workout, and I almost had myself talked out of it all day, but I went down and did it anyway. I just have to keep reminding myself that I want to look as good as I possibly can when joey comes home in just over 3 months.
I did 5 mins warm up
10 run 1 min/walk 1 min intervals
cool down
for a total of 30 mins and it felt great (read I thought I was going to die at times :P)

Anyway, I guess people were right when they encouraged me to get out and see people. It is good for both of us to have the interaction and variety that it provides. I think I am finally crawling out of my rut, which will help my mood and my weight loss.

Another weekend gone!

2010-01-31T20:17:00.002-04:00

I guess when I really think about it, time is going fast, but not quite fast enough.
I did ok on the eating front this weekend even though I was stressed and unhappy for most of the time. I feel bad sometimes that Arianna is stuck with me, but I'm doing the best that I can right now.

I got a bit of a meal plan jotted down for the week, and hopefully next week I will introduce some new recipes so that I'm not getting bored.
Tomorrow is a scheduled run day, so hopefully I will find the motivation to do that. I am doing a 5 min warm up and running 1 minute walking 1 minute, and then cool down. Last week I did 6 run/walk intervals, and this week I am hoping to increase to either 10 intervals or 1 min 30 seconds running. I'm not sure yet.

I'm thinking of heading to a play group tomorrow just to get out. I think I just need to be around people to feel human again, but for some reason I just feel like avoiding people even more. I need to stop that. There are a few people that want me to call, so I am putting it out there that I am going to start calling people and going out to preserve my sanity.

sorry for the downer post, tomorrow will be a better day.

Olympic Give away

2010-01-29T20:33:00.003-04:00

Jaime is having another awesome give away. The much coveted olympic mittens, head over to her blog and check them out!! http://www.embracingbalance.com/

Today is officially half way until DH comes home! Some days I wonder if I can make it, but I know it's just a little over 3 months.

Eating has been going good, and I am exercising as much as possible. today's exercise was all about shoveling. We got some snow overnight, so I bundled up A and we went out to start the driveway. I got about half done and then it was time to go in and get warmed up. I finished the other half after A went to bed, and of course the plow had dumped more heavy snow in the bottom of the driveway so my arms may be a little sore tomorrow.

I am scheduled to run tomorrow, as I am taking another shot at learning to run. I am working on running every second day but it has to be at nap or bed time so sometimes motivation is sorely lacking.

I am having a hard time getting organized enough to make up weekly meal plans, but I know that once I do that it will be great for my weight loss and my wallet.

I am thinking about a "no spend" challenge for February. I was reading about it on a yummy mummy blog. I will still spend money on fresh foods and milk etc. but I will not spend any extras. I seem to be coping with stress and boredom by spending, and we really don't have the money or the space for any more stuff!

Well, it's friday at 8:50 pm and I am seriously considering going to bed. I am cold, tired and lonely. I find the weekends the worst!

Awesome Giveaway

2010-01-18T11:58:00.002-04:00

Check out Jamie's awesome blog for an amazing Grass Giveaway. I really want to try this stuff, I heard it is awesome!!
http://www.embracingbalance.com/

I will try to get an actual blog post going later *fingers crossed!

Friday Night

2009-11-27T20:25:00.002-04:00

It is 8:30 pm on a friday night and I am heading to bed in a few minutes....I am pathetic..lol.

Things are going well, I miss Joey like crazy, but I am coping well and getting things done. I have lost 13 lbs since Joey left, which is awesome considering my weight didn't change for months. I am mostly doing core, but there are some changes that I need to make, and I need to do much more planning and prep. I bought the clean eating cookbook, and it looks awesome. I am exercising a lot, and feeling good, hopefully I'll be quite a bit smaller when Joey comes home in May.

I really need to start monitoring my spending, part of my de cluttering will have to involve not bringing any other un-necessary things to take up space. I also have to realize that I don't need to buy something just because I want it. I am going to make wish lists and buy things for myself as rewards for weight loss and fitness goals.

all in all, besides the fact that I'm a little lonely, things are looking good and seem to be shaping up the way that I want them too.

Running Shirt giveaway

2009-11-09T14:47:00.001-04:00

Check out Jackson's world for a great running shirt give away.
http://www.andherlittledogtoo.com/

Sugar Hangover

2009-10-26T19:55:00.002-03:00

That was me for most of the day. I felt terrible. My head was pounding and I felt sick whenever I moved too fast, I thought that going for a walk would help but it didn't, so when I put the baby down for a rest I went to bed with a cold pack, and some advil. This was totally self inflicted though.
I was feeling sad yesterday because Joey left for six months so I thought that it would make me feel better to totally pig out on cake and cookies I am totally embarrassed by the amount that I ate and I can say that I won't be doing that again.

Today I am eating better and counting points again and I am hoping that in these 6 months I can get fit and actually lose weight. I want to be smoking hot to surprise Joey when he gets home.

I am also starting what I like to call Project De-clutter I read somewhere that in order to de-clutter your body and mind, that you must first de-clutter your surroundings. In my home there is clutter everywhere. We are pack rats and even though the house is only a year old, it is too full of "stuff" so I will be getting rid of stuff room by room, in order to make it a desirable, comfortable space for us all to live.

I also plan to paint in the New Year so we'll see how that goes. I am still trying to pick out colors and it's a pretty big job.

On an unrelated note, go over to Jackson's world and enter to win a waterpik. http://www.andherlittledogtoo.com/

Diva Cup giveaway

2009-10-16T14:28:00.002-03:00

If you want to read some eye-opening info and enter to win a diva cup, check out http://meghantelpnerblog.com/

Tea giveaway

2009-10-02T20:36:00.002-03:00

I love tea, especially this time of year when the nights get colder. Check out Ashley's blog for a great mug and loose tea giveaway. http://maintenancewithashley.blogspot.com/

Life has been pretty hectic, and the eating has been meh, but I am slowly climbing back on the wagon. I am interested in doing clean eating/core and I just have to get organized and start planning my meals.
The main issue seems to be my time management, and organization skills. I am getting more organized, but I need to start planning my meals and exercise. I seem to have great intentions and then I get so tired and rushed that I just say forget about it and grab quick things. But with a little advanced planning and prep, I know I can do this. A menu plan will also help with the grocery bill too, since I am on a very tight budget now.

It is so scary that in less than 25 days I will be a single parent for 6 months!! to say that I am terrified is an understatement. Arianna will be just turning 1 year old, and I will be without my best friend. She loves her daddy so much and I am just so sad and anxious for how this will go.
I know we will be ok, it just sucks!

Anyway, I guess that's all for tonight, it's time for some pumpkin spice tea.
Jenn

Amazing Grass giveaway

2009-09-29T10:02:00.002-03:00

Check out http://angiealltheway.blogspot.com/ to enter a great giveaway for amazing grass super food. I have been seeing so many positive comments for this stuff!! it seems awesome.

Another contest

2009-06-16T08:28:00.000-03:00

Check out Jackson's world http://lovejackson.blogspot.com/ for a great re-usable shopping bag giveaway!

I walked

2009-06-15T08:35:00.002-03:00

So I did the Walmart Walk for Miracles yesterday, and it was a great experience. Joey and Arianna walked with me, and it was a beautiful day. It was great to see so many people out to walk and raise money for the IWK hospital. It felt great to complete my first charity walk and it definately wasn't my last!!

I have also decided that I will be definately doing some form of the bluenose next year, either the 5 or 10k depending on how my training goes. I was actually able to complete day 1 of the couch to 5k, so we'll see how things go from there.

I am feeling good, and looking forward to vacation. I am still planning to exercise and eat well on vacation, even though it will be hard. I am trying to come up with a diet plan that combines the WW core plan, with south beach because even though I will have to limit some things, it is the best diet for my PCOS.

I am also going to become a pampered chef consultant to earn some extra money, so if anyone reads this and wants some pampered chef or to host a catalogue show and earn free product, let me know!
I guess that's all for now,
cheers

Busy days are here again

2009-06-11T08:47:00.002-03:00

It seems like June is always a super busy month, and this year is no exception. Joey has his course party Friday, I have a birthday party Saturday night and the walmart walk for miracles is sunday, then next weekend is a wedding we are going to, and fathers day. After that we are heading to cape breton for our anual family get together, bbq and lobster party, which is extra special this year because my Uncle breton will be home with his family, and I havent seen them since our wedding 4 years ago.

Joey will be going away July 6th for 3 weeks, hopefully all will go well in my trial run as a single parent. This will get me used to what it will be like in October when Joey goes away for 6 months!! I am trying not to think about that!

Eating is going ok, I am not counting points or calories, I just needed a break. I am going to come up with my own core/south beach style eating plan and hopefully it will work out for me. I am still exercising quite a bit though, and I am going to try running on the treadmill later :)

that's all for now have a great thursday!

Angie's contest

2009-06-11T08:45:00.001-03:00

Check out Angie's blog for a chance to win some Guiltless gourmet baked chips :)

http://angiealltheway.blogspot.com/

Tea giveaway

2009-06-09T21:40:00.001-03:00

Check out Jackson's world for a great tea giveaway!

http://lovejackson.blogspot.com/2009/06/libre-tea-giveaway.html

Amy's contest

2009-06-03T21:34:00.001-03:00

Check out Amy's blog for a great Victorian Epicure Giveaway
http://amysquesttoskinny.blogspot.com/

Happy hump day

2009-06-03T07:47:00.003-03:00

Yesterday was a great day, we walked to play group and had a great time there and then last night was yoga class. I can't believe how much I love yoga, it helps me relax, and I can feel my body getting stronger in certain poses, and it really helps with back pain. I had pain last night when I went, and after the pain was so minimal. I hope that once this session is done I can find a good video or something because I can't go in the fall, as Joey will be away.

I made some lunch foods to freeze, I made a veggie chili, with 3 kinds of beans, and a type of rice with tomatoes and kidney beans. these should hold me for a little while anyway.

I am planning my 7k walk today but I'm not sure if I will because I feel exhausted right now.
my exercise goals for June are to add some strength training, and start the learn to run program. I am almost to where I need to be motivation wise, but I just need a little kick sometimes.

Rainy Friday

2009-05-29T16:40:00.002-03:00

Today is rainy and cold which is totally the norm for a N.S spring so we didn't walk today, but from Monday to thursday this week I walked 24 KM's!! not too shabby eh??

The Doctor wanted to see me after my blood work, and sure enough my thyroid is low and the meds are adjusted, so I am really hoping that this is the cause of my non-existent weight loss lately, fingers crossed.

Mentally I am doing fairly well, I still have my days, but who doesn't? I am trying to simplify and de clutter, but is a big job, so I'm taking it slow. The basement is crazy!! it's a mixture of empty boxes, and boxes that we have been putting off sorting through, but my goal is to have this ALL done by fall. I say fall because with the baby I can only do a little at a time so I don't want to rush through and end up in a mess again. It really doesn't matter how long it takes, as long as it gets done.

This weekend is pretty much a write off because Joey's sister and her BF are staying here, so we probably won't get much done. I'm not too keen about routine disruptions but I gotta roll with it I guess ;)

Happy friday everyone

Tired Tuesday

2009-05-26T07:54:00.002-03:00

I am up way too early! My munchkin is teething or growing or something and has decided that 6am is her wake up time. Now she's napping all cosy in her swing, and I'm awake drinking coffee....c'est la vie :)

I am totally maintaining my weight, and totally frusterated, but I am still exercising every day. I am coming up with a new calorie plan, and trying to find some new ideas for lunches, involving beans and lentils.

Today we have playgroup, and I have yoga tonight, so I'm not sure if I'll be walking 5 or 7 km's. It depends on how much time we have before playgroup, and how my back/body are feeling. I have been quite sore lately so losing weight is the best thing that I can do.

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Angela's contest

2009-05-26T07:47:00.001-03:00

Check out Angela's blog here http://ohsheglows.com/2009/05/21/love-your-body-vegan-spelt-crackers-contest-giveaway/ for a chance to win Align probiotic suppliment.

Amy's Contest

2009-05-20T09:48:00.001-03:00

Check out Amy's blog http://amysquesttoskinny.blogspot.com/ to get in on an awesome contest featuring some awesome looking Pampered chef products!!!

Long weekend

2009-05-16T17:11:00.002-03:00

Finally, a long weekend where we have nothing that we have to do. We are going to just do things that we want to do.

For Joey's birthday every year we usually do something different, that involves getting out and having fun. Since this year we are plus 1, I had to come up with something we all could do, so we went to the Salt Mars trail, in eastern passage. It was a really nice walk that took us through salt marshes and the woods in some areas, and the day was perfect, overcast, no rain and not much wind. We had a picnic lunch a little over half way through, and all in all it was a great day!! We walked 13 kms!!!! and even though it took almost 4 hours, we stopped a lot and enjoyed the views. other than some chafe, I am feeling great!! and proud that I did the whole thing!!!

I am currently reading Jillian Michaels "Master Your Metabolism" and so far so good. I am hoping it will help me lose a little weight.

Anyway, off to shower and get into my jammies.....pure heaven!

Good, bad and ugly

2009-05-12T08:41:00.002-03:00

Not much has changed with me, but I will post some quick updates

The Good

I am still walking at least 5k as often as I can
I joined a beginner yoga class that goes for 8 weeks, and I love it!
Most of the time I feel great
I am feeling a lot happier and optomistic lately

The Bad

I have still not lost ANY weight
I feel really discouraged about the lack of weight loss
I hate going shopping and seeing how limited the clothes selection is for someone my size
I hate the fact that I need to buy some new summer clothes that I don't like and are overpriced because they are plus

The Ugly

The cheeseburger, onion rings and blizzard that I ate yesterday while having a poor me moment.

I just can't get a handle on this eating thing. I plan to look up healthy recipes, and make a fitness/calorie plan but I don't do it. It is my goal for this week to finish this and follow it!! Wish me luck!

Sigh

2009-05-02T17:52:00.002-03:00

I have lost my momentum!! As hard as I tried to stay positive, I am mad and disappointed that I am not losing ANY weight!!! I am exercising 5 days per week, which includes some 5k and 7k walks with the stroller, and work out videos, but still nothing. And when I measured myself, there was very little change there too. Something has to change, I just need to figure out what. I really need to make a plan and try to change things up a bit.

I am going to try limiting processed and convenient foods, as well as trying to add strength training to the mix.
I am also going to seriously limit my computer time so that I can get more things done around the house. I really need to de clutter my house and my mind.

I feel change coming, and it's going to be big!!

Contest time

2009-04-23T08:37:00.002-03:00

Check out Amy's blog http://amysquesttoskinny.blogspot.com to get in on an awesome contest featuring Tommy Europe from last 10lbs Bootcamp and Bulging Brides. It's a great prize!!!

Sunny Monday!

2009-04-20T09:02:00.002-03:00

I'm tired of typing "I'm back" as a post title but here I am back again :). It has once again been a little rocky, but everything is sorted out again and on an even keel.

I am still not losing any weight, which is totally frustrating. Even though I feel great and people are commenting that I look like I am losing weight, the scale is not moving. I am going to ask the Doctor about this tomorrow, but honestly, he is more of a let's ignore it and see what happens kind of guy. I wish there were more available doctors here.

I got a new Jogging stroller over the weekend which I am so excited about, mainly because it is tall enough for me and I am still obsessed with starting to run in the near future. I have increased our walk route to 5k and Friday it took exactly 1 hour, which I think is good, but I'm not totally sure :) Anyway, we are going to try the stroller out today, and hopefully the 5k again.

I guess that's all of the updates for now
Have a good one!!

I'm back

2009-03-18T10:28:00.002-03:00

Well I took a little bit of a break from blogging, but now I'm back. My eating is going well, but obviously I need to tweak some things because I have only lost 2lbs in a month. I know that to many people this is a great loss, but for me it is not. I have 160 lbs to lose and I usually lose very well when I am OP.

I got a heart rate monitor as an early birthday gift, and it also has a calorie counter which is great. At first I thought that the calorie's burned were quite high, but I went to the store and asked the guy and he said it's pretty accurate. I also just took the heart rate values and calculated my heart rate percentage, and it seems correct so I'll have to trust it. If I start seeing big gains though I'll cut back on AP's. Another thing is that I have been earning many AP's but not eating many if any at all, and I have to find a way to fit them in to my day.

I need to start eating less sodium because I am feeling bloated and gross most days, but I don't know what to eat for lunches that is low sodium, tastes good and doesn't cost a fortune. It is super important that I master this eating thing so that by the time Arianna can make food choices, it will become second nature to me, and she will hopefully make the best choices without thinking about it or struggling like I do.

I guess that's about all that's going on, I am no longer feeling depressed which is huge to me, I can cope with things, and I may have bad moments or bad days, but no more bad weeks. I can honestly say that exercise has played a huge role in this!! I feel more confident as a mom, and while I miss being able to do some things, I wouldn't change things for the world!

I love Friday

2009-02-20T22:47:00.002-04:00

Friday's are great because it means that I have Joey home for 2 full days when he's not on duty.
Not much new happening lately though, I had 1 bad day but I didn't go over my points, so I'm very happy! I did really well points wise and I got lots of activity but I was only down 0.6 lbs. There could be a few reasons for this like water retention and not eating all of my AP's so hopefully the scale will catch up next week.

I have already used a large chunk of my flex points and they only reset today but I'm o.k with that as it was planned. Oh well off to bed I guess :)

Happy Sunday!!

2009-02-15T14:05:00.002-04:00

I am happy today because I was actually able to weigh myself on my scale!!! That means that I lost some weight, and it makes me feel great. I hate how high the number is, but it is going to help me stay strong on this journey!
I'm on my own with Arianna today so I may not get a chance to work out, but I work better with a day off too.

I am just so happy that I can finally keep track of my progress!!

Another great day

2009-02-12T22:12:00.002-04:00

Today is great, it seems like I am coping much better all of a sudden, and things are going right. I think the key is that I am ok with things not being perfect, I am rolling with the flow and seeing where it takes me.
I got in another treadmill workout today and although I am only doing 20 mins, it feels great. I am doing a pretty high intensity workout and I am planning to increase my time next week.

I also got beautiful flowers from Joey for an early valentines gift, tulips and some other purple stuff, they are awesome and they make me smile!!

I am really hoping that this mood change continues and I can stay OP for a long time!!

I'm back

2009-02-11T13:28:00.002-04:00

Ok so how many times have I said that I am back on track? Well I de-railed so now I am taking things one day at a time. The depression was bad lately but the meds are worse. I am unable to function on the meds because I feel like a zombie, so I am going to try to help myself through journaling, exercise and eating well. I think most of my negativity and sadness comes from my weight, so we'll see how it goes.

I have been back on track for 2 days now, and I even got in a workout today, which really made me feel good. I am going to make a workout plan and try to stick to it. If I can't exercise during the day, I will do it when Joey gets home. I am going to take him up on the offer of help, instead of trying to do it all alone.

I can do this and I will be thinner and healthier in 2009!!

Sunday

2009-02-01T20:57:00.002-04:00

Well, it's been a rough go lately. I am totaly off track, and I've been eating for all of the wrong reasons. I have been super stressed, and I think my depression is back full force. I tried to battle it on my own but I can't. I am back on meds and I will try taking them at night so that I am not zombie like, hopefully. I have always wanted to be a mom, and it's killing me that I can not be the mom that I had pictured in my head. Kind, caring and patient. I show arianna so much love during the day but I feel like I am lacking in patience.

I am working on correcting the things in my life that need fixing, and being the best person that I can be. I need to lose this weight for me and for Arianna.

I always binge when I am feeling like this, and I had planned on buying some cake or pastry at the gas station today, and eating it in the car on the way home without anyone knowing. when I was in there, I looked at all of the muffins and carrot cake and squares and I left with none. I am proud of myself for that small victory, and I hope in the days to come there are many more.

I am back on track tomorrow.

Bye bye weekend

2009-01-12T21:36:00.002-04:00

The weekend went way too fast, especially since Joey was gone all day yesterday. The day went fairly well though, and today I decided to shovel the driveway so that Joey wouldn't have to when he got home. Arianna was actually having a good nap so I got to finish all in one shot, which counted as about 50 mins of activity!!!
We had pot roast in the slow cooker, and it was awesome. I must say that I'm not a big fan of regular beef roast, but I love pot roast. We also had some roasted potatoes, carrots and frozen mixed veggies. It was an awesome meal for a cold night. I am still OP and I have not used any flex this week either. I am not against using flex at all, in fact I find them necessary most of the time, it's just that I haven't needed any yet.
I have stopped tracking on sparkpeople, and just using my notebook, but I still look up the odd thing on sparkpeople to find out the nutritional info.
I am hoping maybe this weekend we can get some swiss chalet takeout as a treat. we used to eat out quite a bit, but now we don't so it will be a nice treat and I find it really easy to stay OP at swiss chalet.
Well off to bed for another night I guess.

Stormy Sunday

2009-01-11T12:53:00.002-04:00

Well another storm is forecast and the snow has started. We are supposed to get 15-20cms I think, but I really have no Idea how much will actually fall.
Yesterday was a busy day of going to costco and Sobeys to stock up on a few things and get some more veggies to last the week. The eating has gone very well this week, and I am pleased to say that hubby has lost 4lbs!!! Way to go! I still can't weigh myself so I'll have to take pride in the fact that I feel great, even if I can't see the results. This is probably a good thing though because I tend to get obsessed with the scale anyway.
On Friday, Arianna was fussy and wouldn't nap so I took her out for what started out as a short walk, and ended up being 55 mins!! She was all bundled up and quiet, so we kept going and had some great fresh air, even if I was a little cold at first. Yesterday I chose to take advantage of Joey being home and instead of trying out the treadmill, I decided to have a much needed nap instead, I was exhausted. I'm glad I got my nap in then because Joey got called in to do duty this morning so I am on my own until tomorrow night.....boo.
I tried to get a workout in while Arianna napped today, but I couldn't figure out how to turn on the treadmill :( I finally figured it out, so if she naps again later, I'll give it a try.
We were going to have pot roast for supper, but since I'm on my own I'm going to have a taco salad made with home made chili, and a baked pita on the side.....yum I can't wait!!
Anyway, I guess that's it from here today, I'm just watching the snow and hoping that the power stays on!!

No pics

2009-01-07T20:25:00.002-04:00

Well I keep forgetting to take pics of my meals, but one step at a time eh? I am still OP and loving it! Joey is even following it again too which is awesome because he gained some weight and was pretty down on himself too. I am weighing and measuring everything, and it feels right, but my body is rebelling a little. I have a terrible headache and I am exhausted, and I can only imagine that it is sugar withdrawal.
I don't remember feeling this way before, but other times when I was off program I was still limiting sugars, so maybe that's why.

Our treadmill came today, and Joey is putting it together right now!! I am so excited. I also found out that there are cards called I fit cards, that go into the treadmill and have fitness programs to follow. They even have Jillian Michaels ones!! They are $30-$50 each, so I'll be asking for one for my birthday in april. They look so awesome!
Between the treadmill, the bosu ball and the Dvd's that we have, I have no excuses. I will either exercise while Arianna naps, or when Joey comes home.
Well I guess that's all for now, time to tidy the kitchen, make formula, and fall into bed exhausted :)

Today is the day!!

2009-01-05T22:20:00.003-04:00

Just a quick post today, I started weighing, measuring, and tracking my foods today, and so far I am totally OP!!! I feel great about this, and I am happier than I have been in so long. It is amazing the difference one day makes.
Due to finances I am doing it on my own this time, and I must say I really miss my e-tools. I miss just entering food amounts and having the points calculated for me, and I miss the online tracker, but I'll manage.
I took some food pics today, but I'm too tired to figure out how to post them, so I'll do it tomorrow. The only thing I have to work on right now is feeling constantly hungry at night. Everything will fall into place with time though.
Well gotta go to dreamland, tomorrow will be a long day, Arianna is getting her needles :(

2009

2009-01-02T23:07:00.003-04:00

I can't believe it's here already! Christmas is over, a new year has begun and this is my year to rock!!
I have decided that Monday is my absolute start date. Joey goes back to work and it will be so much easier to get into a routine then. I am planning on setting short term and long term goals so that I am not putting too much pressure on myself.
I made a calendar today for January so that I can track my activity with stars. Usually this keeps me motivated because I love making stuff and working with stickers...lol I should have been a teacher. I am also going to type and print my goals for January so that I can post them somewhere and look at them often.
I am really excited to say that we are getting a treadmill on wednesday!!!!! Thanks to a loan from my grandparents, we can now exercise at home, which means a lot to me because the gym is out of the question financially, and it's too cold most days to take the baby out for walks now. I just have to make time to do this either while Arianna naps, or when she goes to bed for the night. It will definately be more challenging now but I can handle it!!
The only thing that concerns me food wise is lunches. I need to come up with some quick, filling ideas that I will enjoy. I am working on it.

My goals for January so far are:
-Exercise at least 30 mins, at least 4 times/week (hopefully more, but my schedule depends on mommy duties)
-Be Op every day (I can have treats but I must record them)
-Use spark people every day (This is free and I can't afford ww now)
-Track and record workouts
-Blog regularly, and try to figure out how to post pictures on the blog
-Take measurements and before pics (I can't weigh myself right now because I am ashamed to admit that my scale does not go up high enough right now. I would also like before pics so that I can see my progress as I go along)

I was going to reflect on 2008, but I want this post to be about looking forward, so here's to 2009 and all of the success and possibilities it holds!!!

Santa

2008-12-18T23:13:00.002-04:00

Arianna had her first Santa pic today, and I must admit she was such a good girl....:) She has been a lot more content the past couple of days, which really makes me happy!

Here is her pic http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=193926&l=9de40&id=796880371
her cheeks are so big and squeezable lol.
I made some peanut butter cups to give as gifts today, and tomorrow I'll be making turtles and short breads, I always give something homemade and something else for Christmas, and this year since money is a bit tight, we are making these things and Giving a pic of Arianna in a nice frame. Everyone says not to bother giving them anything, but I love giving gifts!! I hope the turtles turn out OK, as I have never made them before, but I'm sure they will.

I honestly can't wait to get back to healthy eating and planning again because I will feel much better mentally and physically, and I can't wait to be proud of myself again. I was so proud and felt so good when I lost the weight before. I'm trying not to beat myself up because I just had a baby, but I can't help it. I'm disappointed that I was able to wear jeans from before I lost the weight :( but I'll lose them all again and more. It's going to be hard doing it on my own, but I'll have to stay excited by using stickers on the calendar again. It really worked last time!!

Anyway, I guess I am asking Santa for motivation, and the will to succeed!

It's getting close

2008-12-16T18:18:00.002-04:00

Well it's now really close to Christmas, and I'm trying to get excited. We are going home to Cape Breton, and while it will be great to see everyone, it's going to be crazy. I think we are expected to visit lots of people, and honestly with a baby who is pretty fussy all the time, I am putting my foot down and not running all over the place, they can feel free to visit if they want. :)

The baby is still pretty fussy every day, which is super hard but when she smiles it makes everything better. I am a bit nervous about Joey going back to work but I should be fine.
My plan is to get back to healthy eating in the New Year, but it will take a lot of planning and prep work to make a go of things. At least with me cooking healthy, Joey will benefit too, so that's a bonus. I am also still planning to exercise which will be tough when I am tired already from looking after princess fussypants. I will have to make the most of my time and make sure that I am always prepared with a solid plan.
So I have lots of goals I just need to act on them!! I have to admit that it excites me just to be planning this.

Anyway, I'm working hard on getting ready for Christmas and everything else I need to do.

Blah

2008-12-10T17:30:00.004-04:00

I'm trying really hard to get motivated and happy, not just for weightloss but for everything. I guess sleep deprivation affects everything these days. I'm eating everything in sight but that will change.

I am positive that it is going to change because I remember how great I felt last year when I was trying on clothes and smaller sizes fit. I was also getting so many compliments, and I started feeling good about myself for the first time ever! I also know that exercise is just as important as diet for my success, and I feel so confident when I am getting more fit and I can see the results. I loved going to the gym, and while that is not possible now, we are saving for a treadmill, and we have weights and stuff here to work out on.

I know I can do this, I will get motivated, and I will be fit and healthy again. I am just going to plan things out, become organized, and reward myself with things that matter instead of food. I will also continue to read the blogs that inspire me and make me want to make the right food choices, especially Angie all the way. I love the idea of taking pics of the meals and snacks to help with accountability and I plan to do this too.

Anyway, there it is. I will try hard to keep my motivation and make the changes necessary for me. I have to say that before I wrote this out I was feeling sad and having a pity party, but now I feel much better, because I know what I have to do, I have the tools to do it, and I just have to look within myself for the strength to make it happen :)

I'm back!

2008-12-06T22:24:00.003-04:00

It's been too long! So many things have happened since my last post, but I'll keep it brief because I don't want to write a book.
-We moved into our new home in May

-I was put off work due to high blood pressure in pregnancy, and since my 6 month probation period was not quite finished yet, my employer fired me. They say it's because I used too many sick days. Oh well :(

-I finished my courses, and worked harder than I have ever worked at anything before, and I still managed to fail one. boo to that.

-I had a healthy baby girl on Nov. 3rd, and I am trying to be a great mom, and keep my sanity all at once. The Jury is still out on how I'm actually doing, I cry every night but things seem to get a bit better as the days go by.

So I'm sure that there's lots more, but that's just the reader's digest condensed version. I gained quite a few pounds during pregnancy, and I have about 40 left to lose, but I know that I am not in the right place mentally to lose weight now, so I'm waiting until the New Year to recommit.
I have to do it on my own this time because I can't afford meetings, so we will see how strong my will is!

Joey bought me a Bosu ball for Christmas so that I can still do the exercises that the personal trainer showed me, which is awesome because I have wanted one for so long. I also want a treadmill, but with a new house, new baby and no job, I guess I'll have to wait quite a while for that!
Anyway, I guess that's all for now. I'm going to try to keep this updated for my own accountability, and once I'm fully on track, I'm going to try and post pics of my meals like some other bloggers do. I love looking at the healthy food pics, it motivates me so much.
more tomorrow :)

Sunny Sunday

2008-04-27T20:48:00.002-03:00

Today was a great but busy day. We bought some furniture for the living room. We went to 3 places and then went back to Leon's which was the first place that we visited. We decided on a leather sofa and love seat, and we bought the coffee and end tables as part of the package,
We will eventually get a chair and an area rug to add some color to the room.
The guy at Ashley was really helpful when talking about fabric types and color pairings but we couldn't afford the set that we really wanted there. We may go back there for a chair though.

The house will be finished within the next week or so which is exciting and scary all at once. I can't wait to move, but I am still having such a hard time getting motivated and organized. If it wasn't for Joey, I don't know what I'd do!! He is so great, and has done a lot of packing so far.

So far this pregnancy is going well too. I am so excited that I heard the heart beat, and that I am feeling relatively well. I am still waiting for an ultrasound, I am really anxious to know exactly how far along I am, and find out my due date. I am sick some evenings, but it's not bad so I've been blessed so far.
I am still quite tired but this is the latest that I have stayed up for a while.....It's 9pm...lol.
I am just feeling so excited and blessed to be pregnant, and I thank God every day for letting me feel this Joy.

As for my diet, it has not been great, but I am trying hard to eat healthy meals so that the baby will be healthy and that hopefully there will be no serious complications with this pregnancy.

So after that long winded update, I guess that's all for now.

My Update

2008-04-05T13:26:00.002-03:00

It's been way too long!! I was having serious problems sticking to ww and going to the gym. I have been falling asleep right after work, and found that I have no energy all day long.
I went to the doctor because I figured that my thyroid meds needed an increase or something, but it turns out that the levels are fine.......I'm pregnant!!! I'm really nervous because of the 2 miscarriages that I've had, and it's really hard to say how far along I am because I didn't get a period since the last miscarriage. I have to go for an early ultrasound, and I'm praying that it's soon so that I can find out if everything is ok.

So that's my update, and for now I'm trying to relax and take it easy!

Another storm??

2008-03-04T21:38:00.002-04:00

So there is a freezing rain warning for tomorrow, and I just hope that if it happens, it is enough to cancel work for the day....but I highly doubt it.
I am still really tired but I am planning to go back to the gym and get back on track tomorrow.
We are still working on the house stuff, my new job may mess things up because of the probation period, but the guy who is figuring out the finances says he's 95% sure that we will get it. All of this stress is really affecting my eating, but I can't let it anymore!

I still have the goal that I would like to start running, and I am really looking forward to being able to fit into all of the cute workout clothes in sport check, and Lululemon when it finally comes here.
I can do this!

Another Stormy Saturday

2008-03-01T20:27:00.002-04:00

I hope that it's true when they say that march comes in like a lion, and goes out like a lamb. I'm finding it hard to believe that It's march 1st already. I'm so disappointed in myself that I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 weeks!! I'll definately have to go tomorrow. I am feeling very tired and headachy this past week, and even took a sick day on Friday. I felt bad because I know that there was lots to do at work, but I really needed the day. I stayed in bed until noon, and I still felt tired.
On the homed front, it looks like we will be moving soon!! we are buying a new home in a New subdivision in Eastern Passage! I am so excited, but nervous as well because there is so much stress around buying a home! I just hope that everything works out ok.
The weather is pretty bad, as it is snowy and windy so we are just staying in and watching "the Evil Dead" and snacking on things that I am afraid to mention here, yep definately going to the gym tomorrow!!

I am going to try the core plan again this week, as it wasn't too bad this week and it will be even better when I'm exercising again.

Take care,
Jenn

Stormy Day!!

2008-02-18T21:55:00.002-04:00

Wow, the weather is so terrible right now!! It is windy, rainy and cold out right now. Of course I have no motivation to exercise, and I didn't go to the gym :( I wasn't feeling great today, and after supper we went to walmart so there wasn't much time anyway.
I have realized that these new snacks that I have become addicted to are really bad points wise, and I have been eating them all weekend. I am not buying these anymore because they are a huge trigger food for me.
I have decided to try core for at least one week starting on saturday. I am hoping that due to my PCOS and thyroid problems, the core plan will help to increase my energy level and help me feel better.

Joey and I are starting to look at houses, I am so excited but I just hope that we are truly ready financially. This is the first time that I have had a good financially stable Job, so hopefully everything will work out!!!
Well I guess that's all for today, I'm off to bed!!

back to blogging

2008-02-16T13:37:00.002-04:00

......and back to basics!
This week I am promising myself to review all of my ww materials and I am getting back on program!! I know I can do this but for some reason I have a mental block, and an all or nothing attitude. This is very dangerous for me, and I know that I can gain all of this weight back easily.

I am having a down day today, that I think may be due to P.M S, I am trying to get happy though, because we are going down town for a romantic hotel stay/dinner, as a late valentines gift. I am excited but again obsessing about the food choices that I will make at dinner. Oh well, I'll be right back on track tomorrow!! I gained 2lbs this week and I was sure that It would be a loss, so I have to work harder this week.

On the job front, I love my new job. The hours are awesome, and the people are great!! hopefully I'll be here for a long time to come!

I have been neglecting the gym more than usual due to tiredness, but I am trying to get back to normal with my energy level, and I may go to the doctor to see if he has any suggestions.
I am also thinking about posting my daily menu's here to keep me honest, we'll see.

So I guess that's all for now, I'll have to keep this updated now even though my life is not very interesting!!

Bad blogger

2008-01-14T22:38:00.000-04:00

I'm a bad blogger because I didn't post lately, but in my defence, I have been really busy with a large dose of no motivation. I haven't been to the gym in a few days because I was letting my body heal, but I thing it's time to go back.
I started my new job today, and it was a lot different than I expected. The clients need a lot of care, but I'm sure that I can do this and the change might be right for me. The hours are awesome, as well as the vacation and the pay. I am really hoping that I can make this work and do well with this.
I am feeling some anxiety tonight as well as sadness and I'm a bit lonely. I know that joey only left today for two weeks, but I feel like it wasn't a good time for him to go away, I was fine while he was here, but now I'm feeling some pain and sadness, and a little overwhelmed with the changes that I have been going through in the past week. What I really need is some time off to sleep and heal, and instead, I'll be working 72 hours per week for the next 2 weeks. I honestly hope that I can make it through this, because if I can't, I may end up with no job, and then where would I be??
Oh well, I hope I made the right decision.

On a diet note, I am going to spend some time this weekend, doing up meal plans, and menu ideas and hopefully making some easy, core breakfasts that I can eat on my way to work. That's the plan and we'll see how it goes. As for this week in the evenings, I'm going to try extremely hard to get caught up on my course. There is so much to do, I hope I am strong enough to do it all!!!

Week from hell

2008-01-11T19:22:00.000-04:00

I can honestly say that I had the worst/craziest week ever.
On tuesday I found out that I was pregnant, and I was so excited but scared. I was scared because 5 years ago I had a miscarriage and I knew that I was probably at a high risk this time too. So Joey and I were trying not to talk about it, but we eventually ended up in the baby section at walmart, planning and laughing. we were so excited...then last night I started bleeding, I had to go to work, which was terrible. I went to the doctor and he said that I was miscarrying, and my levels show that this would not have been a viable pregnancy anyway. I am really sad but I'll be ok eventually.
Also today I got a phone call offering me a job, with awesome hours, full benefits and a pension plan. This is quite a big decision to make on a day like today, but I said yes, and I'll end up working 2 jobs for the time being until I give my notice, etc. oh well, I'll deal.

Also Joey is going away monday for 2 weeks! This sucks because I couldn't need him more than right now, but he has to sail on another ship. It is only a short sail so I should be ok.
Add to this the fact that I had my first personal training session (which was awesome) and had to cancel my second, to give my body some time off and it makes for a crazy week.

So now I have to pick myself up, get back on track and stay strong. I can do this.

Sunday

2008-01-06T18:50:00.000-04:00

Today was a lazy sunday for me, I didn't get dressed, and I didn't move too far from the couch. I was really busy though, writing a paper and catching up on my courses. I'm so glad to have one assignment done but I still have a long way to go to be caught up.

As for the weight watchers and exercise, I am doing very well. I started a calendar to keep track of my on program days, and I am using stickers, an idea which I borrowed from some other girls. I totally love getting the stickers, it is so exciting!! I bought Eeyore ones and Tinkerbell ones, and I get one for every day that I am on program. This includes eating properly, tracking everything, drinking my water, and exercising when I am scheduled to do so. On the exercise rest days I will still get a sticker because I am following my plan.
I totally love this idea, and it is definitely motivating me!

I have decided that I need to come up with a meal plan for suppers too, taking into account when I am working. This will make it easier to stay on track, and hopefully reduce the temptation to eat out as much as we have been.
All in all I feel really great lately, and I hope it continues. When I feel good it affects everything in my life for the better.
Have a great evening everyone!!

Weigh in day

2008-01-04T00:12:00.000-04:00

So as I mentioned yesterday, today was weigh in. I had a gain of 1.6 which I'm really happy about because when I came back from Cape Breton I was up 10lbs on my scale. So now I have to lose 2 lbs to get back down to where I was before christmas.

I had a great workout today, I really pushed myself and felt great afterwards, then Joey went to the mall and I had a nap. It was such a great day. I have to talk to the trainer today and set up an appointment, probably for monday, I can't wait.

I also called the woman back about the job interview, I have a time set up for tuesday, hopefully I have a good shot at it because I think a change is exactly what I need right now.

Anyway, I guess that's all for now :)

Hump Day!!

2008-01-02T23:26:00.000-04:00

I'm so glad that the weekend is almost here! I am stilll trying to recover from the holidays and I want to use the weekend to do some cleaning and organizing as well as catching up on some sleep.

I have my weigh in tomorrow, and I know that I have gained, but I am back on track and moving forward. I joined 2 challenges on the ww.ca board and I am going to work my hardest at achieving them. One is to get 1200 mins of activity in Jan. ant the other is to lose 10 lbs this month (I may not reach this one due to the gain that I am expecting, but I'm still going to try.
I am hoping that if I start the year strong, I will continue to get stronger over time!!

At the Gym tomorrow I am planning to book my first personal training session, which is a consultation. I got 5 sessions as gift from joey and I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I have never had a trainer before so I'm not really sure what to expect.

I got a message today that a place that I applied to wants me for an interview. By the time that I got home the place was closed so I'll call tomorrow and set up a time. This exciting too because as early as next week my current job hours are being cut. Although this job is less pay, it is more hours and the hours are much better. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it is what I'm looking for, and that I'm what they're looking for. I applied to a couple of other jobs too, but so far no word.
Well I guess that's all for tonight, I'm going to bed.
More soon!

New Year's eve

2007-12-31T22:45:00.000-04:00

I am finding it hard to believe that 2007 will be over in less than 2 hours! I am excited for the new year because I am going to use it as a fresh start and a chance to be the person that I know I can be.
Although I accomplished 70lbs of weight loss in 2007, and started an exercise program, I still had a hard year and I am hoping that 2008 will be better.
I would like to accomplish many things in 2008 but I will not put too much pressure on myself to succeed, as long as I take baby steps towards my goals I will be fine.
Here are some goals for 2008:
Stick to a budget- I have to stop spending so much money on things that I don't need just because I'm bored or lonely.
Stop obsessing over things I want to buy- I have to realize that I can't get everything that I want, and to be satisfied with what I have and how fortunate I am. (this is a big one for me!!)
Find a new job that pays well- I am hoping that this happens this year sometime.
Have confidence in my abilities and myself- this is big too because the more confident that I am, the more chance of sucess that I have.
Decide which academic path to take- this will depend on if I get into any of the courses I am applying for, but If I don't I need a plan b,c,d, etc.

Some of my weight loss and fitness goals are:
Track everything- instead of just guessing and spinning my wheels
Stop eating takeout- this also ties in to the budgeting goal :)
weigh and measure and follow the WHOLE program!!
Don't reward myself with food, use things I want instead- this ties in with other goals as well!!
On thursday only eat 1 treat instead of having a whole treat day!!
Keep exercising to the best of my ability
Don't be ashamed to try running!!
And of course, eat the best possible foods that I can, not too much processed foods.

This is alot to change in one year, but I know that I can at least start on the path of all of these changes, for once, I have faith in myself!!!
Happy New Year everyone!

Here we go again

2007-12-12T20:21:00.000-04:00

Ok so after quite a while of not writing, I have finally decided to update this.
I am still doing my courses and although I am a little behind, I think that all will be well. I am also still looking for a good job, and although I am feeling very discouraged, I am hoping that one comes along soon.
In the next few days I will be making a list of the things I hope to achieve, as well as the things that I would like to change about myself in the new year. I know that there are some things that I am too hard on myself about, but I am honestly going to reflect and look deep inside to see where I want to go with my life.
As for weight watchers, I am down 68lbs and although I have gone off track a little, I am slowly getting back there and I just have to start measuring and tracking again.
So it looks like I'll have a busy few days ahead of me, but it can only benefit me right??
I guess that's all for now!

2007-10-02T20:19:00.000-03:00

Well after a couple of really bad days in the last couple of weeks, I'm feeling back to normal. Joey and I had an awesome talk and we are back on track.
I was bad last week and skipped weigh in, I really have to stop doing that and face the music. I'm going this week no matter what!! I may actually gain because I joined a gym this week and I am working different muscles than my usual work outs do. It feels awesome to be back at the gym, I missed it. I actually got a great rate, and they let me have a student rate even though I'm only taking 2 courses!! It seems like a great place and I feel comfortable there, which is so important to me.
I started my courses this weekend, I'm a little nervous but I need this to graduate and I am going to try my best.
I am still thinking about core because it might help my PCOS but I'm not sure yet how it will fit into my lifestyle.
That's all for now.
Jenn

So tired

2007-09-17T14:02:00.000-03:00

I am exhausted today!! it almost feels like I can't function. I am also feeling very overwhelmed by life today, there's so much that needs to be done and I don't have the time or energy to do it!! I did get a walk in, which makes me happy, but I also felt like I was going to pass out or collapse. I don't know what else I can do but keep trying. anyway, I'll try to write more later, I have my first product to review!! yay.

Changes

2007-09-16T17:43:00.000-03:00

Today's post is about changes, I am very happy about summer changing to fall and now I am trying to inspire some changes in myself.
-I am back on track with ww for the most part and I have gotten back into exercise again, slowly but surely!
-I am getting a bit more energy every day and I am glad that I found out about my low thyroid.
-My course starts Oct 1 and although I am nervous, I am also excited about the possibility of graduating and moving on to the next step(whatever that is) in the spring
-my new job is great and I am excited about the extra money, but it also sucks that it is only until November.

The only thing that is really bothering me right now is my relationship with my husband. I honestly love him with all my heart and he is my best friend, but I am feeling a lot of mixed feelings around him lately. It seems like he doesn't care about anything and he expects many things to be on his terms. Don't get me wrong, he is not abusive, and he puts up with a lot of shit from me, but I wish there was more support and discussion. I have a hard time talking about things with him and I wish he cared more. I see a desperate need for changes here because I'm afraid that if something doesn't change, our love might not be enough.

anyway, enough about that. I am just so happy that it's fall because it always feels like a time for starting over and refreshing after the summer. Who doesn't need that once in a while?
Jenn

2007-08-18T19:59:00.000-03:00

So it's been a while again! I have been keeping busy with work, and some family are visiting from Cape Breton. I love having visitors but I had to lay down the law a little about the use of margarine and oil!! See my grandfather does all the cooking..by choice and he cooks healthy foods but uses too much margarine and oil. After a few gentle reminders he didn't use as much as usual.
On another note, I totally shocked myself when I stepped on the scale at my meeting and saw that I have lost 50 pounds!!!!!!!! I was so excited. I have been in weight watchers since Feb 23 and I am happy with my progress so far. I have had some bad weeks but I always get back on track and keep going!
I start my new job Monday, the same day as Joey comes home. I am excited about the job but I am nervous as well. I am really excited about Joey coming home, it gets really boring and lonely around here without him.
The last night at my old job turned out to be pretty eventful too, I had to call 911 about a fire set outside the house across the street, I gave a statement to a super hot police officer, and then I was up most of the night because of an intense lightening storm that knocked out our power, so I had to monitor the alarm system!!! That may have been the busiest night since I started there!!
Anyway, I guess that's all the excitement I have for now!

Lazy Sunday!

2007-08-05T16:05:00.000-03:00

I'm pretty sure I'm back to normal weight wise now, which is good. I feel better now that I'm getting my veggies and water in again, it's amazing how much of a difference it makes.
I had a great walk yesterday, 6.8k in 80 Min's, I decided to take a new route and see where it took me and I'm glad that I did. I am really struggling to get my butt out and walk today too, this always happens when I leave it too late in the day, I obsess over the fact that I didn't exercise, but I think I'll take an evening walk after supper for a change today. I wish I knew why it's so hard to get motivated to do anything lately.
I guess that's all, I'm off to mope around I guess.

Wow

2007-08-03T07:58:00.000-03:00

So a lot has happened since my last post. Joey only came home for 1 week and then he had to leave today again for the arctic. He'll be gone for 20 days this time, we had a great week together though. we went to Cape Breton for a pool party and fireworks, we went to the waterfront, we went to dinner and a movie and we had a picnic in a cute picnic park. It was great but I am up a few pounds. I'm hoping it's mostly water weight and that I will be able to get it off by next weigh in. I skipped weigh in yesterday, which I kn ow is bad but I was super stressed about the weight gain. I am ready to get back on track, although the vacation was nice.
On another note, I got the job I was talking about earlier, it's not day shift though, it's evenings and awake overnights. I was going to say no but it is a great chance to get lots of training and experience in the field. I took the part time instead of the full time so hopefully this will work out and become permanent.
Oh well, I guess that's all, off to another boring weekend alone!
Jenn

2 years!!

2007-07-17T16:22:00.000-03:00

Yesterday was our 2 year anniversary! Hard to believe that Joey and I have been married for 2 years already! I was a little down because Joey has been gone for 3 weeks and won't be home until July 28th but thanks to some kind words and cyber hugs from the ww.ca people, the day got better. There were a lot of suggestions to get together with friends, which made me realize that the reason I don't really have any friends is because I have slowly pushed them away. I don't know why I did this, I just know it's time to fix this if I can because I used to love getting together with friends so much, and I miss that.
So Joey was able to call, which was awesome, because I haven't heard his voice since canada day!
There is a new job posting at work, dayshift and twice the money, for 3 months and then I would go back to my old job, I really want to get this but I am so nervous to apply and it will cut into my time with joey when he comes home, but I am seriously thinking about applying. I am high enough on seniority that I may have a reasonable shot at getting it. Oh well I will think about it overnight.
Anyway, I guess I'm off to exercise even though it is pretty hot out.....yuck.
Take care,
Jenn

TGIF

2007-07-13T22:43:00.000-03:00

I am so happy that today is friday!! I worked 2 double shifts this week and they were good shifts but I'm tired. I really miss Joey today too. Only 2 weeks until he gets home!!
Weigh in this week was awesome, I lost 3.4 for a total of 42.4!! It feels great. I had a great walk today too, 5.4k in 64 mins. It was so hot today too, we are finally getting some summer weather. I am getting up early tomorrow to walk so that I don't get as hot as I did today.
So I tried cherries last night for the first time and I loooove them!!! The only place I could find some though was costco so I had to buy a 4lb box of them, which is good because they have a short season and I'm going to freeze some to have later in the year.
The tall ships are in town and I'd love to go and see them but I'm not good in crowds unless I have someone to go with, mainly Joey, so I'm not going. I'll just try to think of something for us to do when he comes home. Well I guess that's all, I live a very boring life,
Jenn

2007-07-08T16:04:00.000-03:00

I had an alright weekend I guess. I was bored yesterday and I went to penningtons to see the girls, in a way I miss working there because the people are great but I also don't miss alot of things about the job. Anyway, a skirt I've been looking at for a long time was on sale so I figured I'd try it on. I took a 26 and a 24 into the fitting room and the 24 fit!!! It fits good enough that I could wear it now! So I bought the skirt and a top to go with it and I feel so good! I haven't worn a 24 in so long. When I left working Penningtons I was a 28!!! anyway it was great. I am going to wear this outfit when Joey comes home and I go pick him up.
I am doing nothing today, well actually, I'm making soup and exercising but I'm not going out. I have a couple of really busy days ahead of me, I took 2 extra 10 hour shifts at work so I'll be really tired by the weekend but I wanted some extra money for Joey's vacation.
Well off to exercise I guess.
More later,
Jenn

2007-07-06T21:44:00.000-03:00

I am soooo sore right now. I decided to clean and de-clutter my apartment today, which turned into 6 hours of work!!! I did the usual stuff as well as steam cleaning the carpet and furniture in the living room and other jobs that I've been putting off! now when Joey gets back home we just have to clean out the storage room and I'll be happy. That is another huge job and I am not doing it alone.
Anyway since the furniture is still drying I am hanging out in the bedroom watching T.V and surfing the net, which is nice for a change. I don't see the bedroom much lately since I work the sleep shift monday night-thursday night.
I think I will walk if the weather is nice tomorrow, it has been really crappy lately so I've been doing the eliptical instead. Also I think I've been avoiding walking since some jerk was yelling things at me from his apartment. These things really bother me although I try not to let them.
I guess it's time to get back at it!!
Anyway I'm off to bed since it was such a long day!
Jenn

Weigh in!

2007-07-05T19:33:00.000-03:00

Well I didn't do too badly today, I lost 0.6 even after the bbq and drinks this weekend. I tried to make good choices but I still splurged a little. I know I need to start measuring my portions again because trying to eye-ball things isn't working for me.
I also don't have alot of motivation for exercise these past few days but I'll get back on track. I ordered a pedometer on costco.ca yesterday so hopefully it doesn't take long getting here. I also got a sport watch today, it's not fancy but it has a timer on it to time my walks, and eventually my running when I start. I would love to start running soon and eventually get a timex ironman watch.
I am also thinking about switching to core, I'm nervous though because I love certain snacks that aren't core but I can use ap's for those. I also know that Joey wouldn't like core but I want him to keep following the program with me. I'll think about it for a week and in the meantime eat very few processed foods and see how I do.
Well I guess that's all for tonight!
TTFN

Back at it!!

2007-07-02T21:12:00.000-03:00

So I went home to Cape Breton for the weekend and I went off program alot but I had fun. It was our yearly family gathering so I'm ok with it but now I have to get back on track. I didn't exercise today but I will get up early to do something tomorrow. My biggest motivation is to lose more weight before Joey gets home on July 27th. I miss him alot tonight for some reason and it's only been a week.
I have decided what I am going to do when I hit my goal weight, I know it's really far off but I would really like to get professional pictures done at a studio. This is something I can look forward to and work towards.
anyway, off to relax before bed and get ready to get back on track tomorrow.

Sunny monday morning

2007-06-25T08:40:00.000-03:00

Well I am feeling a lot better lately but I am a little sad today. I just dropped Joey off at the base, he is leaving on his ship until July 27th I'm glad it's only 1 month though. I'll just have to keep busy so the time will pass quickly. We had a great day yesterday at Peggy's cove just outside Halifax, we earned some great activity points walking on the rocks and we even got some pictures taken of the 2 of us by some nice people who offered to take them.
I realized that I need to start measuring my portions again because they seem to be getting bigger and I would really like to lose some more weight by the time Joey gets home.
I made some of Mandy's muffins last night, they are so awesome!! I usually eat them for breakfast with my coffee, they taste great and are nice and filling!
Well I guess that's it for now, I'm trying to kick myself into going for a walk.
Jenn

2007-06-17T19:13:00.000-03:00

That's me on the left.

Friday

2007-06-15T18:06:00.000-03:00

Well here it is, Friday again. Yesterday was weigh in day, I lost 1.6 which is awesome but I am .2 away from my 10%. Today is a bad day for me as my depression has decided to rear it's ugly head, I have spent most of the day crying and freaking out about my career and education situation. I am trying so hard to work everything out and correct the mistakes of my past(low marks, etc.) but it seems like the harder that I try, the more obstacles I run into. It is days like today that just make me want to give up, but I know that's stupid and I may feel a little better tomorrow. I just wish I could get a good paying job that I love and am good at(I know, doesn't everyone).
It would probably help if I had lots of friends to talk to, but I don't most of my friends have drifted away over the years. I probably wouldn't talk to them anyway because I feel silly sharing things like this, even with my husband.
oh well I think it is time to go try to lighten up a bit, this is a little serious for my second post!! lol.
On a different note, when Joey gets home tomorrow I will get him to help me post some pics.

Number 1

2007-06-12T10:51:00.000-03:00

This is my first post of my first blog. It is kind of exciting actually. I decided to do this because it seems to be helping some people with their weight watchers journey. This is my 4th time trying weight watchers, hence the blog name. It feels right this time so I am going to do all I can to keep things fresh and to stay successful. I know there will be setbacks and gains but I will overcome them and reach my goal weight. I have a lot of weight to lose but I'm taking it one day at a time. I have lost 34 lbs since the last week in Feb. so I know I can do it. Anyway, I guess that's all for now, I'll think 0f more to put here later.